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Had a particularly shitty day at work. I really need to get out of the church, but I haven't gotten any phone calls on the applications I've turned in, and I just don't know what to do next. I hate not knowing what to do. I hate that I've been put in this position. It's just making me so angry.
Saw HSM 3 for the third time, and I've already told two other kids at church that I'll go see it with them as well. I can't help it, my love for this stupid movie grows exponentially with how shitty my life gets, and I've only got a little bit longer with the church's credit card. I figure I should milk the cash cow a little more before I have to give it up for good.
Tomorrow I get to go to the lady bits doctor to get a biopsy of my endometrium. I have no idea what they expect a biopsy to tell them, but then, I'm not a lady bits doctor. All I know is if this shit gets dragged out any longer, I DO NOT KNOW WHAT I WILL DO. Since my health insurance dries up with this stupid freaking job I just got fired from.
The timing of all of this is just so perfect, seriously. You know, perfect in the extremely fucked up sense.
I am so angry at life today. *hates* Except it's not even hate, really. I'm just so over this shit. I'm exhausted from caring, from worrying, from even thinking about what I'm going to do next, how I'm going to pay for shit. I just feel hopeless.
Saw HSM 3 for the third time, and I've already told two other kids at church that I'll go see it with them as well. I can't help it, my love for this stupid movie grows exponentially with how shitty my life gets, and I've only got a little bit longer with the church's credit card. I figure I should milk the cash cow a little more before I have to give it up for good.
Tomorrow I get to go to the lady bits doctor to get a biopsy of my endometrium. I have no idea what they expect a biopsy to tell them, but then, I'm not a lady bits doctor. All I know is if this shit gets dragged out any longer, I DO NOT KNOW WHAT I WILL DO. Since my health insurance dries up with this stupid freaking job I just got fired from.
The timing of all of this is just so perfect, seriously. You know, perfect in the extremely fucked up sense.
I am so angry at life today. *hates* Except it's not even hate, really. I'm just so over this shit. I'm exhausted from caring, from worrying, from even thinking about what I'm going to do next, how I'm going to pay for shit. I just feel hopeless.