I just don't care.
In this entry i'm going to be completely honest and I don't care whose feelings I hurt, cuz i'm sick of hurting myself.
The reason i've been so stressed lately is because I can't stand some people. Steve, Pat, and Diana are like my best friends, but they've been getting on my nerves a lot lately. Pat's being a diva, and treating people like shit, not me... but a lot of people have come up to me and told me about stuff that he's done, and i tried to stick up for him, then this week i went to drama, and i see he was treating everyone like shit. Like he ruled the world.... hate to break it to you pat, but you don't..
And steve. Usually i can stand Steve's upbeatness...but lately, i can't. Maybe it's just the fact that i'm in a bad mood, but it just doesn't make me laugh anymore when he comes up to me, and is like "wanna fuck" i just shut him down all the time. or when he jumps in your face, and does the tonuge thing... I WANNA PUNCH HIM IN THE BALLS!
Diana is so awesome, but idk. It seems to me that everytime that a guy likes her, she has to tell me, and kinda throw it in my face. I know she doesn't tell me because she wants me to be jealous, but i am. Why don't guys want me like they want her? Is it because i'm not gorgeous like she is? or skinny like she is? I just want to know that one guy thinks that i'm hot. or that one guy has a crush on me... that's all i want. Call it self-centered. call it greedy. call it what you wish, i don't care.
And one thing that bothers me about all people is that when they say something that they think is funny, and no one responds to it the first time, they repeated. and if no one responds to it again, they repeat it again... THE REASON NO ONE FUCKING RESPONDS TO IT, IS BECAUSE IT'S NOT FUNNY. IT'S RETARDED.
FUCKING HOMECOMING! i can't stand these friggen elections. Everyone is making such a huge deal about it, and i don't understand what the big deal is. Seriously, what is being elected homecoming king or queen going to do for you in the real world. My theory is they should just do away with the elections, and have everyone that wants to be the queen or king be the king or queen. and sense when is being elected queen based on how hot you are or how slutty you are? (NOTE: THAT DOES NOT APPLY TO EVERYONE ON THE LIST!!!!!)
Also, i've been wicked stressed cuz of school. Mr. Ellis class is killing me. i feel like i work so hard, and no matter what i do, it just doesn't matter. Nothing i do will be good enough for that man. and i've just come to accept that. But it sucks, i've never had this much trouble in school. I THOUGHT SENIOR YEAR WAS SUPPOSE TO BE EASY!
My mom's been on my ass about not helping out around the house, but i ask you this...when the hell do i have time to help? I go to school at 7:00 get home at 8:00, do homework till 10:30 - 11:30, then sleep and repeat. I have no time to do fun things, and if i do, i feel like i have to plan it 6 months in advance.
Also, i've been working out at the gym, and it's hard. It makes me hate myself cuz i'm that out of shape that i can't run on a treadmill for more than 20 minutes!! for christsake, yesterday the guy next to me ran for 60 minutes. I CAN DO A THIRD OF THAT!! BARELY!!!
Lastly, this time of the year sucks, cuz tomorrow is me and Dan Currans anniversary. and we aren't together anymore. and i don't understand how i could have been so stupid. and chances are we will never get back together. The thought is always in the back of my head of "what if i stayed with him? Would i be happy?"
Alex is gorgeous. But i know that he has a girlfriend, he's just soooo pretty to look at and smell.
i haven't been with anyone in so long. do you understand how sad that is? i'm a loser. I WANT TO BE LOVED.
The reason i've been so stressed lately is because I can't stand some people. Steve, Pat, and Diana are like my best friends, but they've been getting on my nerves a lot lately. Pat's being a diva, and treating people like shit, not me... but a lot of people have come up to me and told me about stuff that he's done, and i tried to stick up for him, then this week i went to drama, and i see he was treating everyone like shit. Like he ruled the world.... hate to break it to you pat, but you don't..
And steve. Usually i can stand Steve's upbeatness...but lately, i can't. Maybe it's just the fact that i'm in a bad mood, but it just doesn't make me laugh anymore when he comes up to me, and is like "wanna fuck" i just shut him down all the time. or when he jumps in your face, and does the tonuge thing... I WANNA PUNCH HIM IN THE BALLS!
Diana is so awesome, but idk. It seems to me that everytime that a guy likes her, she has to tell me, and kinda throw it in my face. I know she doesn't tell me because she wants me to be jealous, but i am. Why don't guys want me like they want her? Is it because i'm not gorgeous like she is? or skinny like she is? I just want to know that one guy thinks that i'm hot. or that one guy has a crush on me... that's all i want. Call it self-centered. call it greedy. call it what you wish, i don't care.
And one thing that bothers me about all people is that when they say something that they think is funny, and no one responds to it the first time, they repeated. and if no one responds to it again, they repeat it again... THE REASON NO ONE FUCKING RESPONDS TO IT, IS BECAUSE IT'S NOT FUNNY. IT'S RETARDED.
FUCKING HOMECOMING! i can't stand these friggen elections. Everyone is making such a huge deal about it, and i don't understand what the big deal is. Seriously, what is being elected homecoming king or queen going to do for you in the real world. My theory is they should just do away with the elections, and have everyone that wants to be the queen or king be the king or queen. and sense when is being elected queen based on how hot you are or how slutty you are? (NOTE: THAT DOES NOT APPLY TO EVERYONE ON THE LIST!!!!!)
Also, i've been wicked stressed cuz of school. Mr. Ellis class is killing me. i feel like i work so hard, and no matter what i do, it just doesn't matter. Nothing i do will be good enough for that man. and i've just come to accept that. But it sucks, i've never had this much trouble in school. I THOUGHT SENIOR YEAR WAS SUPPOSE TO BE EASY!
My mom's been on my ass about not helping out around the house, but i ask you this...when the hell do i have time to help? I go to school at 7:00 get home at 8:00, do homework till 10:30 - 11:30, then sleep and repeat. I have no time to do fun things, and if i do, i feel like i have to plan it 6 months in advance.
Also, i've been working out at the gym, and it's hard. It makes me hate myself cuz i'm that out of shape that i can't run on a treadmill for more than 20 minutes!! for christsake, yesterday the guy next to me ran for 60 minutes. I CAN DO A THIRD OF THAT!! BARELY!!!
Lastly, this time of the year sucks, cuz tomorrow is me and Dan Currans anniversary. and we aren't together anymore. and i don't understand how i could have been so stupid. and chances are we will never get back together. The thought is always in the back of my head of "what if i stayed with him? Would i be happy?"
Alex is gorgeous. But i know that he has a girlfriend, he's just soooo pretty to look at and smell.
i haven't been with anyone in so long. do you understand how sad that is? i'm a loser. I WANT TO BE LOVED.