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I found this from like 2 years ago in an LJ update of mine:
congrats to those who can help the tears from falling
i can't even help myself from doing so
and its sad thinking back on the memories..
riding on waves of the forgotten
i don't have enough work ethic to get anything done
when im not getting something done im backtracking
im in reverse
and i get back to this place
where silence is all too noisy
and i just want to bury my head under the covers
because i do need you...
and, yes, i sleep ALL day.
and, no, i don't want to get up.
i don't want to face the mirror in the morning
and i certainly don't want to face the public during the day
i have so many doubts about myself... its amazing
there is no substance in my life..
well.. unless you count that which hurts me
im at a stand-still.
and with every moment that goes by, im dieing.
and it does hurt.
the sun IS shining right now..
but in my room i feel shadowed into depression
and im watching the trees sway and listening to the birds chirping..
a sound that clashes with the sad songs that are vomiting loudly out of my radio
and im sitting here silently while these words are forming instantly from the click of my fingers onto keys.
I guess that not much has changed. I know who I am now, not that that made anything better; It almost made it worse.
congrats to those who can help the tears from falling
i can't even help myself from doing so
and its sad thinking back on the memories..
riding on waves of the forgotten
i don't have enough work ethic to get anything done
when im not getting something done im backtracking
im in reverse
and i get back to this place
where silence is all too noisy
and i just want to bury my head under the covers
because i do need you...
and, yes, i sleep ALL day.
and, no, i don't want to get up.
i don't want to face the mirror in the morning
and i certainly don't want to face the public during the day
i have so many doubts about myself... its amazing
there is no substance in my life..
well.. unless you count that which hurts me
im at a stand-still.
and with every moment that goes by, im dieing.
and it does hurt.
the sun IS shining right now..
but in my room i feel shadowed into depression
and im watching the trees sway and listening to the birds chirping..
a sound that clashes with the sad songs that are vomiting loudly out of my radio
and im sitting here silently while these words are forming instantly from the click of my fingers onto keys.
I guess that not much has changed. I know who I am now, not that that made anything better; It almost made it worse.