lately
i've been debating whether i should go for the engineering degree or for some other design or environmental-type degree. i really want to go to grad school for architecture. it's a professional program, for better or for worse. and then there's like three years of being an apprentice before i can get certified...
or whether i should just simply say, "fuck it," and get a nice, simple degree (did evergreen's webpage really say that i could get a year's worth of credits for my F****** IB diploma?!? no, couldn't be.
or whether i should return to Lehigh after my year off because I'm *finally* starting to get somewhat comfortable with people here. but the thing about upperclassmen is... they graduate before me. go figure. i like how involved i've gotten here. i like knowing key people in the system. i like knowing how things work and how to accomplish things. but i suppose with time that's possible anywhere. hey, i've only been here for about 5 months.
or whether i should pursue a degree in physics and mathematics. because that would be years of mental masturbation (theoretically, har har). education for education's sake or as a means to an end or just for the hell of it or for the experience or because something really grabs me. hm. they all seem like reasonably viable options, depending on my mood.
or whether i should apply to evergreen like, now and go there next year. eh, i'm not entirely convinced. but a year is a long time. but this semester's 1/4 over and i feel like i haven't stopped and it's just been one, long, intense day after another and along comes the weekend and i pretend to relax only i don't do enough work so the guilt builds on top of the work and the next week i've got a lot to do. or something. anyway, costa rica project's due monday - a busy weekend! but thank god. really.
today at lunch the PSA had a sit-in against the war. somebody with power found out about it in advance and somehow, somewhy gave us permission so it was legit. whatever. we had a picnic in the Upper UC and did plenty of chanting and calling out. it was merrymaking. except for the war bit.
this evening, while volunteering with Parent's Night Out, i was watching "my" kid play video games, specifically Halo 2. manohman was it depressing. elementary school kids and that violent game with good graphics. whether or not it seems real. they get into the mentality. and then they fight over who gets to play. manhoman.
what else? oh, i'm building a beowulf cluster based on a linux OS for my engr 5 class. it's an interesting ordeal. we finally got all of the CPU's we need today, i believe. i takes a long time to load OS's. linux has lots of fun (frustrating!) games. i can clock hours for playing games. welcome to the real world!! and it's always the people in charge who prevent the project from going to completion. never the team's fault. i'll probably get a low grade for them hearing me badmouthing them. whatever. it's an amusing lab.
also, this Creating a Life Together book is full of interesting ideas and things to consider. also, i'm stuck on job-searching. for this summer or next year or one job to continue with or where to live or what to do or who to job-hunt with or if i should do it alone or or or or
and, as usual, i've got way too many aspirations for this semester. i believe i will need a break this summer to accomplish some of them. more than a 10 days at home. i think i've only been home 12 days total since august. yup. crazy, eh? maybe i'll get in a weekend or two this semester. i hope to.
SARAH, YOU'RE CRAZY! what, me? oh right. i know. *sigh* alright. as long as you know.
also, i have a lot of LJ reading to catch-up on (like since christmas), but that goes along with me being overambitous and living in a bubble. i did, however, catch the end of the state of the union address...
or whether i should just simply say, "fuck it," and get a nice, simple degree (did evergreen's webpage really say that i could get a year's worth of credits for my F****** IB diploma?!? no, couldn't be.
or whether i should return to Lehigh after my year off because I'm *finally* starting to get somewhat comfortable with people here. but the thing about upperclassmen is... they graduate before me. go figure. i like how involved i've gotten here. i like knowing key people in the system. i like knowing how things work and how to accomplish things. but i suppose with time that's possible anywhere. hey, i've only been here for about 5 months.
or whether i should pursue a degree in physics and mathematics. because that would be years of mental masturbation (theoretically, har har). education for education's sake or as a means to an end or just for the hell of it or for the experience or because something really grabs me. hm. they all seem like reasonably viable options, depending on my mood.
or whether i should apply to evergreen like, now and go there next year. eh, i'm not entirely convinced. but a year is a long time. but this semester's 1/4 over and i feel like i haven't stopped and it's just been one, long, intense day after another and along comes the weekend and i pretend to relax only i don't do enough work so the guilt builds on top of the work and the next week i've got a lot to do. or something. anyway, costa rica project's due monday - a busy weekend! but thank god. really.
today at lunch the PSA had a sit-in against the war. somebody with power found out about it in advance and somehow, somewhy gave us permission so it was legit. whatever. we had a picnic in the Upper UC and did plenty of chanting and calling out. it was merrymaking. except for the war bit.
this evening, while volunteering with Parent's Night Out, i was watching "my" kid play video games, specifically Halo 2. manohman was it depressing. elementary school kids and that violent game with good graphics. whether or not it seems real. they get into the mentality. and then they fight over who gets to play. manhoman.
what else? oh, i'm building a beowulf cluster based on a linux OS for my engr 5 class. it's an interesting ordeal. we finally got all of the CPU's we need today, i believe. i takes a long time to load OS's. linux has lots of fun (frustrating!) games. i can clock hours for playing games. welcome to the real world!! and it's always the people in charge who prevent the project from going to completion. never the team's fault. i'll probably get a low grade for them hearing me badmouthing them. whatever. it's an amusing lab.
also, this Creating a Life Together book is full of interesting ideas and things to consider. also, i'm stuck on job-searching. for this summer or next year or one job to continue with or where to live or what to do or who to job-hunt with or if i should do it alone or or or or
and, as usual, i've got way too many aspirations for this semester. i believe i will need a break this summer to accomplish some of them. more than a 10 days at home. i think i've only been home 12 days total since august. yup. crazy, eh? maybe i'll get in a weekend or two this semester. i hope to.
SARAH, YOU'RE CRAZY! what, me? oh right. i know. *sigh* alright. as long as you know.
also, i have a lot of LJ reading to catch-up on (like since christmas), but that goes along with me being overambitous and living in a bubble. i did, however, catch the end of the state of the union address...