The END of Waldendrive
After 5 years, I'm finally ending Waldendrive. I've thought about it many times. Every time I felt completely disappointed after a show or everytime I felt like nothing I was doing was making a difference. Well I finally decided that it really isn't paying off. I hate Waldendrive. I'm sick of my songs. I don't have time or motivation to write new songs, or even record the new ones I do have. I hate everytime somebody tells me how much they will miss Waldendrive, because where the fuck were they the last time I played a show? Where the fuck were they the time before that when I played a show? NOWHERE. Yeah there were a FEW people that made an effort to come out and support, but a few is not enough after FIVE years of working my ass off to play songs that are supposed to make people feel better, or at least not alone. I'd say on average I've gained about 1/3 of a fan each show I've played. Thats 1 fan for every 3 times I play. Fuck that. And now everyone's like, oh youre so bad ass now cause you're in Inked In Blood huh? No. I'm not. I barely even think about that. Everyone else thinks about it enough for me. I don't act any different. I'm not any different. But yeah, it does have a little bit to do with why I'm quitting Waldendrive. I'm finally in a band that some people know about. They are some people I never thought I'd probably ever talk to, let alone being best friends with and band mates. And on top of that, they actually share the same vision as me musically. So I'm spending my time with that. Screw Waldendrive. And screw every shitty fan I've ever had who claimed to like the music but never Actually supported. Man I Love when people talk and sit on their ass. 98% of Waldendrive fans right there. Well not anymore. I don't play for apathetic people. This is kind of like a relationship and there's no reciprocation going on here, so I'm breaking up with you all. Yes this is a selfish move, but should I really continue something I barely like doing anymore anyways just so a FEW people can be a tiny bit satisfied? No. Go listen to better music anyways. You know you would rather listen to Dashboard Confessional, or the Spill Canvas, or Copeland or whatever anways. Who needs a Waldendrive when you have all that? certainly not me.
I should be practicing for my last show tomorrow right now, but I'm not. Wanna know why? Because I could really care less. It's terrible how everyone elses apathy has driven me to apathy as well, but it's hard not to let your environment influence you.
I don't even want to play tomorrow. But this is for the REAL fans. Because I know the REAL fans wouldn't miss my last show. They are the ONLY reason I'm even playing a last show. Otherwise I would've already just quit.
This is for those FEW. The Walden Few. Thank you for everything you've given me and made me go as far as I could. Without you it would have been dead years ago. Don't disappoint me and become Nickelback fans, or Hawthorne Heights fans or something.
I should be practicing for my last show tomorrow right now, but I'm not. Wanna know why? Because I could really care less. It's terrible how everyone elses apathy has driven me to apathy as well, but it's hard not to let your environment influence you.
I don't even want to play tomorrow. But this is for the REAL fans. Because I know the REAL fans wouldn't miss my last show. They are the ONLY reason I'm even playing a last show. Otherwise I would've already just quit.
This is for those FEW. The Walden Few. Thank you for everything you've given me and made me go as far as I could. Without you it would have been dead years ago. Don't disappoint me and become Nickelback fans, or Hawthorne Heights fans or something.