die, imbecilic college financial aid offices >_
gah i hate being middle class. upper middle class. if being an engineer will put me into this situation in life later, i might hafta rethink my career plans. damn it all.
so my dad's an engineer, civie undergrad and mech grad school at brown to be specific. and he makes a pretty good amount. my mom's sorta a computer programmer at an insurance company. and i'm left distraught, unable to choose whether i'll go to a good school that i wanna and leave my parents and myself in debt for the next 10 years. or go to a school i don't wanna go to, but help my parents out a bit. ideally, i'd like to go to brown or cornell. brown is a bit close to me, but it'll really be hard for me to reject them, and i feel bad, considering my dad went there and my sister wants to go there. but cornell offers me a chance to get out of this hellhole of a place (you can tell i have no love of my home state) as well as a superb engineering program. but cornell has their friggin strict financial aid policy. damn ivies and their policies of only granting aid based on great financial need. it sucks to be stuck in the middle. you get nothing. gah college is not worth $45,000 at any institute. why the hell does getting what is now considered a standard level of education cost so much?
the thing is my parents want me to go to these expensive colleges. and obviously, i would like to go too. but i don't want to bring it upon them. i don't know how my dad was able to go to brown, for undergrad and grad, considering he's an immigrant from hk/china. in my case, who goes to a college without any financial aid? i feel like such a spoiled brat or something. and i am. God. i would love to go to cornell. but they basically said i would get nothing. maybe a few thousand dollars in loans. wow that helps so much. what is that, like $41,000 instead of $43,000? and then pay back that $2,000 with 10% interest or some crap like that? -_- my parents tell me not to worry about financial aid. but i do. and i can't help it. i feel bad cause a lot of my friends can't go to the colleges of their choice because of financial aid. and here are my parents telling me to just go. as long as i work hard, that's all they care about. i can't help appreciating this, but at the same time, i feel kinda pissed that they are sorta involved in this business that i didn't really know about. some silent investment thing that cornell is now using against me in determining my financial aid package, or rather lack thereof. >_< also i feel so bad. i should just go to uri, or wpi, or rensselaer. wpi is giving more than uri would in 4 years. and it's not a bad school at all. but i just don't wanna go there. i don't like the way they have classes with their 7-week semesters. i suppose rensselaer wouldn't be too bad. they'll give me a lot, plus a free laptop. but i don't really like the fact that they seem so desperate. i wanna go to a school that will challenge me. i guess i could go to carnegie mellon. they'll give me about $10,000, and that's in scholarships, not loans. that's not much, but it is more than brown or cornell. i've been advised not to go there. :/ i dunno.
i suppose if i wanna go to brown or cornell, brown would be the best choice. close to home, just like my parents like it, but not like i like it. it's about $1500 more than cornell. it's better for me if i haven't decided what i want to study, which i haven't really. i can take classes at risd and receive credit for them. and they are giving a small bit of financial aid. mostly loans. but i do get that ri grant thing if i go there, not that that's much either. a lot of people want me to go to brown. God i hate making these kinds of decisions. if i go to brown, i'll be the only la salle student this year to go there. if i go to cornell, i'll be one of the two going there. i guess it would be nice to go there with someone i know, especially if he's gonna be doing engineering as well. and cornell's engineering is a hell of a lot better than brown's. but then again, if i went to brown, i'd study applied math. which is probably more of my thing, considering i like math and my physics is just terrible. whose wouldn't be if you had amato for a teacher? damn cornell, why won't you be a little nicer with financial aid (and a little faster getting back to me as well)? i thought getting rejected from columbia was painful enough, but this tops it. getting into a college and not being able to go. on a better note, cornell said that if i decide to go to grad school, i would probably be paid to go. stipends and that type of stuff. but no need to think about that now. no, i've got the impending $180,000 my parents are considering wasting on me for my college education that's giving me a friggin guilt trip. -_-
so my dad's an engineer, civie undergrad and mech grad school at brown to be specific. and he makes a pretty good amount. my mom's sorta a computer programmer at an insurance company. and i'm left distraught, unable to choose whether i'll go to a good school that i wanna and leave my parents and myself in debt for the next 10 years. or go to a school i don't wanna go to, but help my parents out a bit. ideally, i'd like to go to brown or cornell. brown is a bit close to me, but it'll really be hard for me to reject them, and i feel bad, considering my dad went there and my sister wants to go there. but cornell offers me a chance to get out of this hellhole of a place (you can tell i have no love of my home state) as well as a superb engineering program. but cornell has their friggin strict financial aid policy. damn ivies and their policies of only granting aid based on great financial need. it sucks to be stuck in the middle. you get nothing. gah college is not worth $45,000 at any institute. why the hell does getting what is now considered a standard level of education cost so much?
the thing is my parents want me to go to these expensive colleges. and obviously, i would like to go too. but i don't want to bring it upon them. i don't know how my dad was able to go to brown, for undergrad and grad, considering he's an immigrant from hk/china. in my case, who goes to a college without any financial aid? i feel like such a spoiled brat or something. and i am. God. i would love to go to cornell. but they basically said i would get nothing. maybe a few thousand dollars in loans. wow that helps so much. what is that, like $41,000 instead of $43,000? and then pay back that $2,000 with 10% interest or some crap like that? -_- my parents tell me not to worry about financial aid. but i do. and i can't help it. i feel bad cause a lot of my friends can't go to the colleges of their choice because of financial aid. and here are my parents telling me to just go. as long as i work hard, that's all they care about. i can't help appreciating this, but at the same time, i feel kinda pissed that they are sorta involved in this business that i didn't really know about. some silent investment thing that cornell is now using against me in determining my financial aid package, or rather lack thereof. >_< also i feel so bad. i should just go to uri, or wpi, or rensselaer. wpi is giving more than uri would in 4 years. and it's not a bad school at all. but i just don't wanna go there. i don't like the way they have classes with their 7-week semesters. i suppose rensselaer wouldn't be too bad. they'll give me a lot, plus a free laptop. but i don't really like the fact that they seem so desperate. i wanna go to a school that will challenge me. i guess i could go to carnegie mellon. they'll give me about $10,000, and that's in scholarships, not loans. that's not much, but it is more than brown or cornell. i've been advised not to go there. :/ i dunno.
i suppose if i wanna go to brown or cornell, brown would be the best choice. close to home, just like my parents like it, but not like i like it. it's about $1500 more than cornell. it's better for me if i haven't decided what i want to study, which i haven't really. i can take classes at risd and receive credit for them. and they are giving a small bit of financial aid. mostly loans. but i do get that ri grant thing if i go there, not that that's much either. a lot of people want me to go to brown. God i hate making these kinds of decisions. if i go to brown, i'll be the only la salle student this year to go there. if i go to cornell, i'll be one of the two going there. i guess it would be nice to go there with someone i know, especially if he's gonna be doing engineering as well. and cornell's engineering is a hell of a lot better than brown's. but then again, if i went to brown, i'd study applied math. which is probably more of my thing, considering i like math and my physics is just terrible. whose wouldn't be if you had amato for a teacher? damn cornell, why won't you be a little nicer with financial aid (and a little faster getting back to me as well)? i thought getting rejected from columbia was painful enough, but this tops it. getting into a college and not being able to go. on a better note, cornell said that if i decide to go to grad school, i would probably be paid to go. stipends and that type of stuff. but no need to think about that now. no, i've got the impending $180,000 my parents are considering wasting on me for my college education that's giving me a friggin guilt trip. -_-