i thought i didn't need this anymore...
I tried to be normal, I tried to eat. Nothing works for me, nothing makes me happy. I reflected on what it was that was keeping me going this summer....being thin. I'm not that anymore, I can't even look at myself. I was once down to 102, I'm now back to 108 and gaining. I hate myself right now. I need you. I need something, something to fulfill this hole and relieve me from this pain. I hate myself. I hate my body.