i woke up today and realized that i am alive.
There is a really dumb song on right now....and i am liking it, because it's one of those days.
i think it is early billy joel....
i am not going to disclose the song, because it is sappy and well...stupid.
but know, that, thought you won't know just how much, i am indeed a big goon.
i have toes, and i am aware that i have toes becaue they are cold.
i am hungry and have a headache.
there is a lot going on this week.
it's only tuesdays and i already feel crowded, rushed and overwhelmed.
but the sun is out
and it is warming my face.
it's interesting that in this part of the country we rejoice in the sun comming out, even if it is only for a few minutes.
i guess it makes sense considering that we haven't seen that big blinding ball for well over a month.
i can't imagine how people survive further north where the sun hides for months.
i don't think i could exist there.
not happily, anyway...
i was reading my dear junies question thingy (and resisted the urge to fill it out myself! i am strong! i am!) and i found a couple questions that i thought were amusing, so i figured i would mention a bit about them...
22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
23. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
on #22....i never quite realized how unbelievably sweet it is to have someone play for you...and sing...
it's a tough thing to do...and it's brave and wonderful.
i hope it happens to everyone at some point in thier lives.
it's one of my favorite things
one of my favorite moments.
and on #23....kissed under fireworks....
wow.
i adore fireworks....
it's my only reason for putting the forth as perhaps my second favorite holiday....i can think of only a few things more beautiful than those booming explosions of colored, twinkling sparks....
to be kissed under them would indeed be lovely.
however, it could not be a huge make-out session, though. that would be distraction for both the fireworks AND the smooching....
...but the idea is fabulous.
i just watched Garden State these past couple days (which i found to be wonderful) and there is a part where there is a kiss in the rain...now, that's not the first film by far to involve kissing in the rain....
...i have never been kissed in the rain.
i love rain.
sometimes i think my life is full to the edges with experiences....and then something comes a long...
something small and stupid and wonderful...
something that has never happened to me, something i haven't done....
and i think "my god, there is SO much...so much to do...so much to see...so much to experience..."
i think at this rate i will never be able to die.
and i like thinking these things.
...noticing these things.
it all means i am alive
awake enough to notice.
alive enough to care.
and i think being alive is so much more than breathing and eating and working...
it is so much more than money and houses and clothes and careers...
more than just moving from one place to another...more than just existing.
i mean, i don't know exactly what it is....
but i think it has something to do with seeing, and noticing and feeling and remembering.
and prehaps it has somehting to do with wondering and seeking
exploring and questioning...
and maybe a bit to to with fear, and overcoming it...
it maybe has to do with ideas and dreams...
doing whatever you do with everything you have.
loving and learing and stumblling and experiencing everything as completley as one can.
-perhaps it has a little something to do with all those things...
perhaps...
all i know is that whatever it is is wonderful.
and i'm lucky i'm here.
and i'm pleased that i get to wonder about it...
i'm pleased.
content...
i'm excited.
and i'm alive.
10:37 AM - 2 Commen
i think it is early billy joel....
i am not going to disclose the song, because it is sappy and well...stupid.
but know, that, thought you won't know just how much, i am indeed a big goon.
i have toes, and i am aware that i have toes becaue they are cold.
i am hungry and have a headache.
there is a lot going on this week.
it's only tuesdays and i already feel crowded, rushed and overwhelmed.
but the sun is out
and it is warming my face.
it's interesting that in this part of the country we rejoice in the sun comming out, even if it is only for a few minutes.
i guess it makes sense considering that we haven't seen that big blinding ball for well over a month.
i can't imagine how people survive further north where the sun hides for months.
i don't think i could exist there.
not happily, anyway...
i was reading my dear junies question thingy (and resisted the urge to fill it out myself! i am strong! i am!) and i found a couple questions that i thought were amusing, so i figured i would mention a bit about them...
22. Has anyone ever sang or played for you personally?
23. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
on #22....i never quite realized how unbelievably sweet it is to have someone play for you...and sing...
it's a tough thing to do...and it's brave and wonderful.
i hope it happens to everyone at some point in thier lives.
it's one of my favorite things
one of my favorite moments.
and on #23....kissed under fireworks....
wow.
i adore fireworks....
it's my only reason for putting the forth as perhaps my second favorite holiday....i can think of only a few things more beautiful than those booming explosions of colored, twinkling sparks....
to be kissed under them would indeed be lovely.
however, it could not be a huge make-out session, though. that would be distraction for both the fireworks AND the smooching....
...but the idea is fabulous.
i just watched Garden State these past couple days (which i found to be wonderful) and there is a part where there is a kiss in the rain...now, that's not the first film by far to involve kissing in the rain....
...i have never been kissed in the rain.
i love rain.
sometimes i think my life is full to the edges with experiences....and then something comes a long...
something small and stupid and wonderful...
something that has never happened to me, something i haven't done....
and i think "my god, there is SO much...so much to do...so much to see...so much to experience..."
i think at this rate i will never be able to die.
and i like thinking these things.
...noticing these things.
it all means i am alive
awake enough to notice.
alive enough to care.
and i think being alive is so much more than breathing and eating and working...
it is so much more than money and houses and clothes and careers...
more than just moving from one place to another...more than just existing.
i mean, i don't know exactly what it is....
but i think it has something to do with seeing, and noticing and feeling and remembering.
and prehaps it has somehting to do with wondering and seeking
exploring and questioning...
and maybe a bit to to with fear, and overcoming it...
it maybe has to do with ideas and dreams...
doing whatever you do with everything you have.
loving and learing and stumblling and experiencing everything as completley as one can.
-perhaps it has a little something to do with all those things...
perhaps...
all i know is that whatever it is is wonderful.
and i'm lucky i'm here.
and i'm pleased that i get to wonder about it...
i'm pleased.
content...
i'm excited.
and i'm alive.
10:37 AM - 2 Commen