return to ghost-land...

[wakingdown]

it's strange to be back...

when i got up here i was ready to do this shit...

of course, i've been unsettled, and for reasons i wish not to discuss in an open forum such as this.

i just wish i could live a normal life, be left alone, be who i am, not who someone else wants me to be...

goddamn, i forgot how much i hated school...

also, i've come to the conclusion that i need to begin preparing myself to talk to my father again...

i haven't seen him in a year or so...

i just realized last night that that's way too long.

i at least want to make peace with him.

or try to.

i haven't felt very good lately, kind of a mental and physical thing...

i feel alone. this is a big world we live in, and i'm beginning to realize just how alone i've become.