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i was at the bead store picking out a charm with words on it. the one i picked was "Trust." it wasnt until after that i realized that it is the only thing that i dont have, thats why i choose it.
he is confusing. the one time i actually care and make an effort he blows me off. then when i decide to live for me, he wants all of my time. NO. i cant take this bs. im trying to be an adult about this now but i think hes the only thing in my life bringing me down. repeatedly anyway.
the other one is remarkably relyable lately. i wish i could see the end of all this. yesterday=worst. went to 3 classes then 11 hours of work. last night=most amazing night of my life. ive never been so satisfied doing absolutely nothing with someone im so attracted to. hes back in my life. for some reason i dont think he'll ever totally leave. we downloaded music, he showed me how i should give a lap dance(HAHA), we talked about each others past and our future. i dont want to think this time. he seems to be real but i have a hard time believing anything he says to me. ive just been proven right too many times.
im doing horrible in school. maybe it has something to do with taking 19 hours and living at 3 jobs. i am ridiculous right now. i just want to lay in bed and laugh with him again. stop me from thinking. kthanks.
he is confusing. the one time i actually care and make an effort he blows me off. then when i decide to live for me, he wants all of my time. NO. i cant take this bs. im trying to be an adult about this now but i think hes the only thing in my life bringing me down. repeatedly anyway.
the other one is remarkably relyable lately. i wish i could see the end of all this. yesterday=worst. went to 3 classes then 11 hours of work. last night=most amazing night of my life. ive never been so satisfied doing absolutely nothing with someone im so attracted to. hes back in my life. for some reason i dont think he'll ever totally leave. we downloaded music, he showed me how i should give a lap dance(HAHA), we talked about each others past and our future. i dont want to think this time. he seems to be real but i have a hard time believing anything he says to me. ive just been proven right too many times.
im doing horrible in school. maybe it has something to do with taking 19 hours and living at 3 jobs. i am ridiculous right now. i just want to lay in bed and laugh with him again. stop me from thinking. kthanks.