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why do i have to be so retarted..
i want to be with him.. i know it..but for some reason i am holding back.. can anyone tell me why? he came to my house.. poured his heart out on my door step.. and the whole time i was thinking.. how can i be so stupid..i have been asking for this for the longest time.. and once it comes to me i am gonna be scared and not know what i want..AHH! i am SOO STUPID!.. the kid cares soo much about me.. drives 30 min just to make me feel better at 1 in the morning.. thats fucking awesome.. i don't know what i was thinking before..and i don't know why i am scared.. i don't want to be scared anymore.. this is worth anything..i am going to take a chance.. because i know it will work out for the best in the end.. this is ment to be i know it... i just have to trust my feelings and follow my heart..because lately i haven't been.. i have been thinking way to much into things.. and i can't anymore.. i have to let go and let things happen..its been a long time since someone this good has come into my life.. and i was still hoping that the last thing would come back.. but then i met him.. and its a sign that its time to move on.. its time to let go of the past and go on with my life..
i want to be with him.. i know it..but for some reason i am holding back.. can anyone tell me why? he came to my house.. poured his heart out on my door step.. and the whole time i was thinking.. how can i be so stupid..i have been asking for this for the longest time.. and once it comes to me i am gonna be scared and not know what i want..AHH! i am SOO STUPID!.. the kid cares soo much about me.. drives 30 min just to make me feel better at 1 in the morning.. thats fucking awesome.. i don't know what i was thinking before..and i don't know why i am scared.. i don't want to be scared anymore.. this is worth anything..i am going to take a chance.. because i know it will work out for the best in the end.. this is ment to be i know it... i just have to trust my feelings and follow my heart..because lately i haven't been.. i have been thinking way to much into things.. and i can't anymore.. i have to let go and let things happen..its been a long time since someone this good has come into my life.. and i was still hoping that the last thing would come back.. but then i met him.. and its a sign that its time to move on.. its time to let go of the past and go on with my life..