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Have you ever had someone follow you around all the time? I suppose stalker is the proper term. It's just so creepy to have a legitimate stalker and I have no idea what to do about it.
I mean, this kid is in two of my classes. And we've had casual dumb conversations before and thats fine, I am in love with people. But this definitely has started to cross a line. I mean, this kid does not seem to recognize that I have no interest in talking to him every second of my life. He will wait outside of the classroom for me to come out and go out of his way to follow me and try to talk to me.
I even do that thing where I have pretend conversations on the phone and take different routes back to my dorm to avoid him. The thing is, he doesn't seem creepy until you take him out of a classroom setting. Why are some people so strange? And why does he not realize that I want to be left ALONE! He really freaks me out. It's now gotten to the point of me being afraid. And I dont think I should ever have to be afraid of someone.
I have a lot going on in my head right now. So much to sort through. I want to cry so bad, but all of my emotions are just so bottled up. I have no outlet. I have no one to talk to about all of this shit. And that sounds ridiculous, but its true. Naturally if I was feeling like shit I would call up Ryan and go smoke some trees, but I have no trees and I can't call him to talk to him about my confusions with our situation. That's just really unrealistic. And if we hangout we'll just end up being cute and kissy and I don't want that kind of attention right now.
And I feel like an ass because a lot of the time I put all of my problems on Andy and thats not fair to him at all. And Maressa is the one always crying to me so I feel like I can't do that to her. Everything will just relate back to her life and her problems, and I really can't stand it anymore.
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I mean, this kid is in two of my classes. And we've had casual dumb conversations before and thats fine, I am in love with people. But this definitely has started to cross a line. I mean, this kid does not seem to recognize that I have no interest in talking to him every second of my life. He will wait outside of the classroom for me to come out and go out of his way to follow me and try to talk to me.
I even do that thing where I have pretend conversations on the phone and take different routes back to my dorm to avoid him. The thing is, he doesn't seem creepy until you take him out of a classroom setting. Why are some people so strange? And why does he not realize that I want to be left ALONE! He really freaks me out. It's now gotten to the point of me being afraid. And I dont think I should ever have to be afraid of someone.
I have a lot going on in my head right now. So much to sort through. I want to cry so bad, but all of my emotions are just so bottled up. I have no outlet. I have no one to talk to about all of this shit. And that sounds ridiculous, but its true. Naturally if I was feeling like shit I would call up Ryan and go smoke some trees, but I have no trees and I can't call him to talk to him about my confusions with our situation. That's just really unrealistic. And if we hangout we'll just end up being cute and kissy and I don't want that kind of attention right now.
And I feel like an ass because a lot of the time I put all of my problems on Andy and thats not fair to him at all. And Maressa is the one always crying to me so I feel like I can't do that to her. Everything will just relate back to her life and her problems, and I really can't stand it anymore.
blahblahblah.