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So its June.
I started neglecting my journals awhile ago. But I feel like I need to start writing in them some again.
ugh!
High School is over. Goodbye drama!! Or so I thought. I can barely stand spending time with some of the girls I know because of their childish need to hate other girls for NO reason. They don't seem to realize that if you treat someone with respect and kindness, then usually they'll treat you with the same.
I also recently got knee surgery. A Meniscal repair to be exact. It sucks a hell of a lot because simple things are much more difficult now than they used to be. I'll be on crutches for four weeks and unable to put ANY weight on my right leg. So no driving, no working, no stairs (without massive amounts of assistance), and you get the idea.
Today I went to the mall and we rented a wheel chair so it would be easier for me. Wow that was soo weird. It was actually a lot more comfortable than crutches would have been, but it was strange. For one thing, I was a lot shorter. This whole not walking thing has also made me grounded in a way. Mom has all these ridiculous things in order to protect me from getting more hurt, but ugh. Its annoying as hell! I can barely leave the house. And I dunno, but it sucks. A lot.
And I ended up stuck in the house tonight because most of my friends have
forgotten that I even exist and would definitely not want to waste a FRIDAY NIGHT spending time with me at my house. I mean, they HAVE to go out and party, you know. Because getting fucked up is the only thing anyone knows how to do these days.
I'm just really grumpy right now I guess. Today wasn't so bad but tonight was just boring. And I love my boyfriend, but he doesnt like hanging out at my house (and I mean, who can blame him? I fucking hate it here) so hes somewhere hanging out with whoever. And I wanted to go but whatever. I can't do much because I'm an invalid.
Basically, not being able to walk sucks. A lot. And I really hate every person who told me that there was a chance that I would just get the tear scraped away and have a recovery time of a week. I hate that my meniscus was actually salvigable and now I have a month of not walking. And no one understands how much this sucks because no one I know has ever had to not walk for this long. Well, except for Kevin, but I haven't talked to him in a really long time and I'm definitely not going to open that can of worms.
Did I mention that this SUCKS!? Because it really really does. And its only been like 4 days. :-(
I started neglecting my journals awhile ago. But I feel like I need to start writing in them some again.
ugh!
High School is over. Goodbye drama!! Or so I thought. I can barely stand spending time with some of the girls I know because of their childish need to hate other girls for NO reason. They don't seem to realize that if you treat someone with respect and kindness, then usually they'll treat you with the same.
I also recently got knee surgery. A Meniscal repair to be exact. It sucks a hell of a lot because simple things are much more difficult now than they used to be. I'll be on crutches for four weeks and unable to put ANY weight on my right leg. So no driving, no working, no stairs (without massive amounts of assistance), and you get the idea.
Today I went to the mall and we rented a wheel chair so it would be easier for me. Wow that was soo weird. It was actually a lot more comfortable than crutches would have been, but it was strange. For one thing, I was a lot shorter. This whole not walking thing has also made me grounded in a way. Mom has all these ridiculous things in order to protect me from getting more hurt, but ugh. Its annoying as hell! I can barely leave the house. And I dunno, but it sucks. A lot.
And I ended up stuck in the house tonight because most of my friends have
forgotten that I even exist and would definitely not want to waste a FRIDAY NIGHT spending time with me at my house. I mean, they HAVE to go out and party, you know. Because getting fucked up is the only thing anyone knows how to do these days.
I'm just really grumpy right now I guess. Today wasn't so bad but tonight was just boring. And I love my boyfriend, but he doesnt like hanging out at my house (and I mean, who can blame him? I fucking hate it here) so hes somewhere hanging out with whoever. And I wanted to go but whatever. I can't do much because I'm an invalid.
Basically, not being able to walk sucks. A lot. And I really hate every person who told me that there was a chance that I would just get the tear scraped away and have a recovery time of a week. I hate that my meniscus was actually salvigable and now I have a month of not walking. And no one understands how much this sucks because no one I know has ever had to not walk for this long. Well, except for Kevin, but I haven't talked to him in a really long time and I'm definitely not going to open that can of worms.
Did I mention that this SUCKS!? Because it really really does. And its only been like 4 days. :-(