Just want to cry... Tears of joy and sadness :-S
I dont know how to describe what I'm feeling right now... I'm happy yet full of frustration. I am SO sick of my parents and all the crap with them. They're constantly harping on me for every little thing. If I do something right, I dont get any praise, yet, if I do something wrong, then I get punished with harsh words and consequences. I love my parents to death, but I am SO sick of them... I just want to move out and get away! They're starting to take everything I love away from me. They say I have too much of an attitude, and now they want to take SOCCER away from me again... you know what? Fuck that cause' I AM going to play.. that is the only thing I feel like I'm good at... when I'm out on the field I dont think of ANYTHING else, it's just me, my team and the ball.. and if they take that away, they're taking away my life .. it sucks.. I have an obsession with Soccer, and now.. it's practically gone. Me and my mom have NEVER gotten along, and now my dad is joining her in her evil ways lol...
On a higher note... I am so happy! I have never felt this way before! If you've read my past entry then you probably know what I'm talking about. I've never wanted anything so much... and all I want is for this to work out.
About school, this year, it's all concentration.. I know I can maintain my grades, and if it means that I need to stop being so lazy and pick new friends then so be it.. but I have to keep it up.
My parents have been talking alot about Oregon again.. They put a bid on a house, but they assured me that we'rent moving till I get out of highschool... I told them I wasnt going with them, and they reminded me that I'm only going to be 17 when I graduate.. therefore I AM going. Well, Fuck that as well because I'm not going to Oregon unless everyone I love down here is comming with me..
Time to go... hope all is well with everyone! I cant wait to see you guys again.. Mandi I am SO happy for you!!! Hope everything works out with Mr.cool-guy.
Brooke can you send me my pillow? LOL!!!
Chris, I love you to death baby!!