i'm slipping
Ok get set for a moan, if your not in the mood then just skip this one and i will see you next time.
today is sucking, its 4.15 and i an still in my pj's. fuck knows where mike is. he had a gig last night in Bradford, their first gig in three years and i couldnt go. i have been making excuses all weekend but the fact is i was too frightened to go. i was teriffied that i was going to be sick or make a tit of myself or just need to escape and there would be no where to go so instead i stayed home alone got no sleep and felt incredibly sorry for myself. i know what it is, i know why this is happening but i just dont know how to stop it. its not the kind of thing that you can justgive yourself a good talking to and that will be it, there is no medication for it and all i really want to do is go to my bed but i cant do that either coz i still feel really sick. yup, its not a good day today.
i go back to work tomorrow so hopefully that will get things back on an even keel, i spent the last week on anti-biotics with shocking side effects and am just keeping my fingers crossed that this is nothing more than the residual effects of them. meh.
ambers birthday was fun, or atleast i reckon she had fun, se has been running about all day since tuesday shouting for her toys, seems like we scored a winner with the giant mechano - i love it anyway! took her to the butterfly farm on thursday, she was terrifed of them and wouldnt let me put her down but loved the huge boa constrictor!!!! i would take the butterflys any day! what a brilliant place that is and its only £6 per adult to get in, makes a change from the usual attractions that cost about £12 each! it comes highly recommended fromthe crawford clan!.
ok i hear my phone ringing, probably mike to say they have just left leeds or something and i can expect him home in about 6 hours!
love yas xxxxx
today is sucking, its 4.15 and i an still in my pj's. fuck knows where mike is. he had a gig last night in Bradford, their first gig in three years and i couldnt go. i have been making excuses all weekend but the fact is i was too frightened to go. i was teriffied that i was going to be sick or make a tit of myself or just need to escape and there would be no where to go so instead i stayed home alone got no sleep and felt incredibly sorry for myself. i know what it is, i know why this is happening but i just dont know how to stop it. its not the kind of thing that you can justgive yourself a good talking to and that will be it, there is no medication for it and all i really want to do is go to my bed but i cant do that either coz i still feel really sick. yup, its not a good day today.
i go back to work tomorrow so hopefully that will get things back on an even keel, i spent the last week on anti-biotics with shocking side effects and am just keeping my fingers crossed that this is nothing more than the residual effects of them. meh.
ambers birthday was fun, or atleast i reckon she had fun, se has been running about all day since tuesday shouting for her toys, seems like we scored a winner with the giant mechano - i love it anyway! took her to the butterfly farm on thursday, she was terrifed of them and wouldnt let me put her down but loved the huge boa constrictor!!!! i would take the butterflys any day! what a brilliant place that is and its only £6 per adult to get in, makes a change from the usual attractions that cost about £12 each! it comes highly recommended fromthe crawford clan!.
ok i hear my phone ringing, probably mike to say they have just left leeds or something and i can expect him home in about 6 hours!
love yas xxxxx