Well where the hell have I been?
So...yesh...I am still alive. Strangely enough. The last time I posted back in 2007 [!] I was thinking I might have fibromyalgia...well it's official!...I do.
I've been on hiatus ever since. I'm coping a lot better. I'm making moves in my life---moving to a different city and hopefully going to meet some new awesome people. I feel scared making all of these changes, but it's time. I have no job, no apt, no life set-up for me there...but that's the fun of life: it's about adventure. I used to be fanciful like this, until fear took over my life and I gave up on taking chances. I gave up on leaping first and looking second because I've had too many bad experiences from it. But years of letting fear hold me back has yielded even fewer results and even more depressed heartache than letting my free spirit be free. So, I'm moving and I'm going to play and let the chips fall where they may. And I feel especially good about that.
Not that I don't get scared, but I'm pushing past the fear into excitement and readiness for what life is willing to throw at me.
I've fallen into the Supernatural [FP and RP] slash-trap I had been avoiding like the plague...And I don't feel guilty about it at all! The fare is soooo good, and I've even gone through LOTR RPS and POTC FPS withdrawal and come out the other side. So far I've made it through the death of 3 major fandoms [lest we not forget my undying OTP-M/K---X-FILES FOREVER BITCHES!!!]...I'm hoping this fandom will last me a good long while...the boyz are just too hot to let go; the stories are just too compelling to not read; and the show is amazing in and of itself. It's actually one of the most engaging shows on television AND the slash is good, too. See: there's still a few reasons to get up out of bed every morning---just don't read the paper!
Not going to spend the full available space for my entire journal reccing awesome people---too many to go there---so just go to: community.livejournal.com/spnstoryfinders/ and just start tooling around. Find the tag that best fits your kink and be opened to a plentiful world of awesome! Then go here: community.livejournal.com/spn_j2_bigbang/ and find the lists for 2008 and previous and read until your panties twist off, you go blind, grow hair on your palms, and/or the cows come home---any or all of the above can and will occur. Don't be afraid to veer off into the rest of the writing of people whose BBs are outstanding...those are plentiful as well! [As always, be prepared: there is shit out there just like with any other fandom...but once you find the good stuff you'll be overwhelmed with it...enjoy!]
In closing, I miss all of you beautiful anonymous el-jay folks I've never had the pleasure of fully conversing with and don't even know if you're reading this. But, be prepared, I'm going to be a lot more present now that I think I've pulled myself from my funk. For now: take care, go do something special just for yourself, and have a good one...I know I'm trying to.
I've been on hiatus ever since. I'm coping a lot better. I'm making moves in my life---moving to a different city and hopefully going to meet some new awesome people. I feel scared making all of these changes, but it's time. I have no job, no apt, no life set-up for me there...but that's the fun of life: it's about adventure. I used to be fanciful like this, until fear took over my life and I gave up on taking chances. I gave up on leaping first and looking second because I've had too many bad experiences from it. But years of letting fear hold me back has yielded even fewer results and even more depressed heartache than letting my free spirit be free. So, I'm moving and I'm going to play and let the chips fall where they may. And I feel especially good about that.
Not that I don't get scared, but I'm pushing past the fear into excitement and readiness for what life is willing to throw at me.
I've fallen into the Supernatural [FP and RP] slash-trap I had been avoiding like the plague...And I don't feel guilty about it at all! The fare is soooo good, and I've even gone through LOTR RPS and POTC FPS withdrawal and come out the other side. So far I've made it through the death of 3 major fandoms [lest we not forget my undying OTP-M/K---X-FILES FOREVER BITCHES!!!]...I'm hoping this fandom will last me a good long while...the boyz are just too hot to let go; the stories are just too compelling to not read; and the show is amazing in and of itself. It's actually one of the most engaging shows on television AND the slash is good, too. See: there's still a few reasons to get up out of bed every morning---just don't read the paper!
Not going to spend the full available space for my entire journal reccing awesome people---too many to go there---so just go to: community.livejournal.com/spnstoryfinders/ and just start tooling around. Find the tag that best fits your kink and be opened to a plentiful world of awesome! Then go here: community.livejournal.com/spn_j2_bigbang/ and find the lists for 2008 and previous and read until your panties twist off, you go blind, grow hair on your palms, and/or the cows come home---any or all of the above can and will occur. Don't be afraid to veer off into the rest of the writing of people whose BBs are outstanding...those are plentiful as well! [As always, be prepared: there is shit out there just like with any other fandom...but once you find the good stuff you'll be overwhelmed with it...enjoy!]
In closing, I miss all of you beautiful anonymous el-jay folks I've never had the pleasure of fully conversing with and don't even know if you're reading this. But, be prepared, I'm going to be a lot more present now that I think I've pulled myself from my funk. For now: take care, go do something special just for yourself, and have a good one...I know I'm trying to.