It's been awhile.
Wow. Lot's has gone on since December..
I found out John A is gay.
I'm no longer friends with that P.O.S John W. >_<
I never talk to Kendra anymore.. =(
Me and Zack broke up, and me and Rick are together. I've known him over 3 years. Yeah, internet thing. Bite me. He's 21. He's awesome, and I love him.
Lots of drama has been happening. But thats getting better. I got back into cutting alot, and now I'm stopping again because I need to. Not healthy. I see a psychologist now. She's a nice woman. I only go to school for 4th, 5th, and 6th period. Yeyah. Cool shit. We got an X-Box now, and I'm addicted to fable. It's an awesome game.
I think I like my ex, Jason, a little. Like, of course, I love him, but i think I like him again? Gr. Weird. Hm...My neice turned 3 yesterday, and today is my 15th birthday. =) BOOOORRRRIIIINNNNGGGG
I wish Rick and Jason were here. *sigh* I'm lonely.
Me and Rick have been together since December 22, 2004. And uhm, on January 31st I overdosed on my migraine pills, but I made myself throw up before it could be fatal. I took 12 instead of 2. I never told anyone in my family..
I don't want to eat... my stomach is killing me.. but I don't wanna eat.. I'm HUNGRY but I dont wanna eat. =X Gr. I dunno what i'll do.
Well, I'm gonna leave you with something I wrote while I was still cutting.
I'm losing this battle,
I'm losing the fight,
I've surrendered to this blade,
I cut every night.
With tears in my eyes,
And with blood on my skin,
I slice the razorblade deeply in.
I wear this happy mask,
To hide how I feel.
Don't bother to even ask,
These wounds will never heal.
I've got these blood streaks,
Running down my arms,
These cuts are so deep,
This is my self harm.
These tears won't ever fall from my eyes,
Instead the flow crimson from my flesh,
Silent cries.
Help me, Save me, Keep me from these ways,
Guide me, Force me, away from this blade.
My scarred arms,
My torn flesh,
My self harm...
With blood so fresh..
This is my life,
My worry and fears,
This is my pain,
In the form of crimson tears.
×Megan×
I found out John A is gay.
I'm no longer friends with that P.O.S John W. >_<
I never talk to Kendra anymore.. =(
Me and Zack broke up, and me and Rick are together. I've known him over 3 years. Yeah, internet thing. Bite me. He's 21. He's awesome, and I love him.
Lots of drama has been happening. But thats getting better. I got back into cutting alot, and now I'm stopping again because I need to. Not healthy. I see a psychologist now. She's a nice woman. I only go to school for 4th, 5th, and 6th period. Yeyah. Cool shit. We got an X-Box now, and I'm addicted to fable. It's an awesome game.
I think I like my ex, Jason, a little. Like, of course, I love him, but i think I like him again? Gr. Weird. Hm...My neice turned 3 yesterday, and today is my 15th birthday. =) BOOOORRRRIIIINNNNGGGG
I wish Rick and Jason were here. *sigh* I'm lonely.
Me and Rick have been together since December 22, 2004. And uhm, on January 31st I overdosed on my migraine pills, but I made myself throw up before it could be fatal. I took 12 instead of 2. I never told anyone in my family..
I don't want to eat... my stomach is killing me.. but I don't wanna eat.. I'm HUNGRY but I dont wanna eat. =X Gr. I dunno what i'll do.
Well, I'm gonna leave you with something I wrote while I was still cutting.
I'm losing this battle,
I'm losing the fight,
I've surrendered to this blade,
I cut every night.
With tears in my eyes,
And with blood on my skin,
I slice the razorblade deeply in.
I wear this happy mask,
To hide how I feel.
Don't bother to even ask,
These wounds will never heal.
I've got these blood streaks,
Running down my arms,
These cuts are so deep,
This is my self harm.
These tears won't ever fall from my eyes,
Instead the flow crimson from my flesh,
Silent cries.
Help me, Save me, Keep me from these ways,
Guide me, Force me, away from this blade.
My scarred arms,
My torn flesh,
My self harm...
With blood so fresh..
This is my life,
My worry and fears,
This is my pain,
In the form of crimson tears.
×Megan×