Oct 03, 2005 14:25
just got home... today was an okay day... kinda boring... gotta ride home with daniel... and we talked about how much schoelman sucks ass... listened to radio head... and the most bad as song by the mars volta... son et lumiere... or something like that... anywayz yeah... so i'm gonna go eat something... relax for a bit then go run... i know... running sux... but i wanna get in shape... and well yeah... running is all good for that and stuff... after that i gotta shower... or i'll reak like ass... and nobody wants that... and then i guess i just sit around... at some point... probably at like 10-11 i got some art homework to do... but i'm not feeling artsy at the moment... that comes during a later stage of exhaustion... but yeah... i might get to see taylor today :D... i mean... i doubt it... but hey... i can hope... i havent seen her... well... since friday :'(... i think this is the first weekend i have gone without her in like months... maybe not... but it feels like it... o well... i just gotta do the best that i can... be the best that i can... and hope that maybe there is really something there...
i did figure out what i think is a large part of the problem... well 2 things... first... just not enough time cause my mom is a fucking nazi... making me come home at fucking 8pm... i'm gonna fix that... asap... im gonna try to get till at least 10... maybe even later... but at least 10... i mean seriously... i cant let her fucking ruin any chance at me having a relationship... i cant let her beat me... and make me let this girl go... but yeah... the other problem... and for some reason i just figured this out now... is we were kinda just sitting around at my house... and tay really doesn't like my mom... and my house sux... so i think from now on... other than to watch the occassional movie... or do other things... when no ones home... i'm gonna try to avoid being here... unless she actually says she wants too... and i also think less dinners with my mom... but yeah... i wanna start going out and doing stuff like we used to... going out and like just going to peoples houses and stuff... maybe get a few more piercings... i dunno... ;)
I wanna try to start going to more live music too... i'm gonna try to get tickets to the Coheed and Cambria show... (ill get my mom to let me go... i don't give a fuck what she says... i just won't go home that day if shes being a bitch about it...) its the 24th... so it's 2 days b4 her birthday... i also kinda wanna go to the iron & wine and calixico show... thats on the 30th... but thats more my kinda music than hers... but i'll still see if she wants to go if i can get tickets... i actually have close to 100 dollars atm... so i think i should be okay... maybe that 93.3 meltdown if tickets are available... i think a hip hop/rap concert might be fun... but what do i know...
well time to go eat... and then run... blah blah blah... i hate running... o well... i need to do it... im sick of sitting on my ass...