Sometimes it is best to just...meh -.-

[waitingrose]

So...yea my birthday went well I guess...rather not talk about it too much.

Taylor came to visit for an hour on Sunday and that was wonderful! I love spending time with her!

Other then that...I am just out of it. I don't know...maybe off the meds caused a problem because I feel different now. I am back on them! Just so you all know...but...something isn't right.

I worry

I worry about a lot of things ahead of me.

5 Months till I graduate...5!

::sighs:: I don't know...

I don't feel right...and I said that a lot all ready but still....

You know how you get those thoughts? Like...'What if that never happened?'

here are my What Ifs:

What if I had never met Taylor?
What if I had never seen Anime?
What if I just dissapeared?
What if I died tomorrow?
What if I stopped talking to people?
What if Lindsay and I had never met?
What if I just stopped responding to things?
What if I shut down?
What if everyone left me?
What if I say something dumb and no one talks to me anymore?
What if Anna and I had never fought?
What if I made a mistake?
What if...

::sighs::

sorry...

I am done being depressive...

"What if I just didn't care anymore?"