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Today I'm having that feeling where I wish I was married. Sex is usually only part of it. I want the companionship, the closeness, someone to talk to and share my feelings with. Sometimes I wish I could just fast forward through life for a while. But then I would be missing a lot of the good stuff, wouldn't I? I remember being about 10 or 11 and wishing I could hurry up and be a teenager already. Now it seems like those years went by all too fast. So I sort of expect it will be the same thing with the time from now until I'm married.
This year I've had an unfortunate living situation which made me very glad I haven't had sex yet. I shared a very thin wall with a very sexually active neighbor and got to share in all of her wonderful experiences. She would complain to her boyfriend about how evertime they had sex she'd get a UTI. They got in fights about how many guys she'd been with before. She once compared his "equipment" to a past boyfriend's. And it seemed like if they weren't having sex they were getting into a fight and temporarily breaking up. Doesn't that just sound great? How could I ever allow myself to miss out on so much fun?
Also, one of my last fellow virgin friends lost her virginity a couple weeks ago. I felt a little depressed for a while because now I'm the only one who hasn't had sex. But I'm over it now. I'm not going to have sex just because everyone else I know has. "Sorry honey, I didn't wait for you because I wanted to fit in with my friends while I was in college." How romantic.
In other news, I'll be moving soon. It should be a change going from living in big cities all my life to living in a small, Southern town.