Crowded thoughts;
There is so much on my mind and heart needing to get out. My mind is crowded with thoughts, thoughts on life, love, being a Christian, growing up, following Christ, and living with him as our example. There is too much to cover in just one blog, part of me fears this will just be a never-ending string of thoughts all connected together into a big ribbon.
I love thinking, I love listening to an idea and taking it, expanding it, studying it. I love to have thoughts, words and emotions take root in my mind and watch them grown as I learn more, I study more, I speak more. I can no longer ignore the raging thoughts attacking my brain, so I have to record them. I must record them, or I think my brain will explode.
Let’s begin first with a subject just recently brought up by my team leader from Peru, Jill. Where are all the Christians?
That’s a heavy question, but a good one to ask. Where the crap have we been?! I’ll admit, I’ve never been verbal about my faith, and if I was verbal about my faith I never lived it. I was never able to. I was ashamed of the stares, the glares, the comments, the questions. With the world battling me, I decided it was best not to wear my Christian T-Shirts to school, I decided it was best not to pray over my lunch, I thought it was best not to defend Christ’s perspective on everything from homosexuality to abortion.
I will not and cannot stay silent any longer. It is too hard for me. I reminded of BarlowGirl’s song Million Voices, it makes me intense listening to it. We are the generation God has elected as his. We are the ones who should be completely unashamed.
But we all desire acceptance. It’s true that the acceptance of Christ is most important in our lives, but no one wants to be considered an outcast. But as I keep changing and growing, I think being called and outcast because I love Christ would be the most flattering thing ever. I would LOVE to be hated because I was a Christian.
I cannot stay silent about what he has done in my life, I cannot shut up, or give up. I will not.
I love thinking, I love listening to an idea and taking it, expanding it, studying it. I love to have thoughts, words and emotions take root in my mind and watch them grown as I learn more, I study more, I speak more. I can no longer ignore the raging thoughts attacking my brain, so I have to record them. I must record them, or I think my brain will explode.
Let’s begin first with a subject just recently brought up by my team leader from Peru, Jill. Where are all the Christians?
That’s a heavy question, but a good one to ask. Where the crap have we been?! I’ll admit, I’ve never been verbal about my faith, and if I was verbal about my faith I never lived it. I was never able to. I was ashamed of the stares, the glares, the comments, the questions. With the world battling me, I decided it was best not to wear my Christian T-Shirts to school, I decided it was best not to pray over my lunch, I thought it was best not to defend Christ’s perspective on everything from homosexuality to abortion.
I will not and cannot stay silent any longer. It is too hard for me. I reminded of BarlowGirl’s song Million Voices, it makes me intense listening to it. We are the generation God has elected as his. We are the ones who should be completely unashamed.
But we all desire acceptance. It’s true that the acceptance of Christ is most important in our lives, but no one wants to be considered an outcast. But as I keep changing and growing, I think being called and outcast because I love Christ would be the most flattering thing ever. I would LOVE to be hated because I was a Christian.
I cannot stay silent about what he has done in my life, I cannot shut up, or give up. I will not.