why did i ever get a job....oh wait. PAYCHECKS.
so it seems like i might have a phobia of updating. hopefully not. probably not. i think it's just that i desperately need to find time to do this more. so today while i should be working and am being paid my lovely 6.60/ hour i am updating as many times in as many ways as i can. go me!
so wow. life is so getting the best of me. as usual i am overwhelmed and drowning in denial. but i don't think i want to be rescued. i'm growing accustomed to the suffocating feeling.
i am finishing up the last of the paperwork for school. it's weird to think that four weeks from today, i'll be gone. i'm just starting to get used to the way things are happening here and now i'm gonna go and shake them all up again. hopefully i'll be motivated to make some better choices this time...or at least ones that are true to who i am. i know that's very cliche but i think it's the best way to describe my current trap. it's a prison of my own making because i never trusted myself enough to try and jump out of the preconceived box everyone had placed me in. these people have no idea what box that might be. yay for me.
in other news, i've been working for two and a half weeks. it's not hard, it's just boring and i am quickly running out of things to do. yesterday, i did some work in the morning, then took a nap and made a new wallpaper for my computer in paintshop....for four hours. and they paid me to do. oh yeah! i wasn't aware that actually finish your work at a state job is looked down upon. i am trying to assimilate to my new surroundings and i think i am making major progress...at least til kenny gets back. lol.
i have officially run out of things to say now so i will stop rambling.
love you all.
so wow. life is so getting the best of me. as usual i am overwhelmed and drowning in denial. but i don't think i want to be rescued. i'm growing accustomed to the suffocating feeling.
i am finishing up the last of the paperwork for school. it's weird to think that four weeks from today, i'll be gone. i'm just starting to get used to the way things are happening here and now i'm gonna go and shake them all up again. hopefully i'll be motivated to make some better choices this time...or at least ones that are true to who i am. i know that's very cliche but i think it's the best way to describe my current trap. it's a prison of my own making because i never trusted myself enough to try and jump out of the preconceived box everyone had placed me in. these people have no idea what box that might be. yay for me.
in other news, i've been working for two and a half weeks. it's not hard, it's just boring and i am quickly running out of things to do. yesterday, i did some work in the morning, then took a nap and made a new wallpaper for my computer in paintshop....for four hours. and they paid me to do. oh yeah! i wasn't aware that actually finish your work at a state job is looked down upon. i am trying to assimilate to my new surroundings and i think i am making major progress...at least til kenny gets back. lol.
i have officially run out of things to say now so i will stop rambling.
love you all.