Cross your fingers for me...
I just sent in my cover letter and resume for two different positions at work... one is a case manager position, and the other is a team leader position. I'm guessing that the team leader position is for the younger kids' unit, so it would probably include some case management duties since I don't think they split the team leader and case manager positions on that unit yet. I think the case manager position might be on the teen boys unit, which would certainly be interesting. Either way, I'm extremely nervous about this. That stupid little gremlin in my head keeps whispering that there are tons of people that have been there way longer than me, and tons of them are probably applying for these positions. On the other hand, not a lot of them have a BA, and even less of them have an MA. And I do have almost ten months of experience there, with four of those being full time, and the months before that I was carrying full time hours anyway. So... yeah, I tossed my hat into the ring and we'll see where it goes from there.
I'm also nervous about these applications because Colin is in the process of applying for a position with the Border Patrol. He's been pre-selected and is now going through the interview process, and if he gets a position it means a 15 month training down in Arizona, followed by a posting on the "northern border" which could be close by or it could be way far away. If I get one of the positions that I just applied for, and then he gets the Border Patrol job, it could mean me leaving St. Vincent a lot sooner than I want to. Really, I love working for St. Vincent and I don't want to have to leave at all in the near future if I'm able to get the kind of position that I would really like to have.
Right now I'm just playing the what-if game, and I know that it's not the most helpful thinking in the world. I've been training myself for years to just take things as they come, and worry about what I can worry about in the present. By submitting my applications for these positions, I'm doing that. I'm trying to further my career, working within the restraints that I currently have. But there are so many things on the table right now, and it's hard for me to ignore the possibilities. I mean, there's also that what-if that includes me not being able to go with Colin when he does his training, which would give me 15 months here in Michigan while he's in Arizona. It would basically be like another deployment, except that I could fly down there and enjoy the sunshine every once in a while.
At this point I really just want SOMETHING to be just a little cut-and-dry. I know that's a silly thing to expect from the greater powers that be, but it would be really nice if Colin and I could get to a place where we're both happy with our jobs and can just settle for a while. As much as I abhor being too predictable, I do enjoy a little bit of solid ground under my feet from which to enact my random flights of fancy.
At any rate, cross your fingers, pray, light some incense... I'd prefer no virgin or animal sacrifices in honor of my much-needed luck but hey, if that's your thing, whatever.
I'm also nervous about these applications because Colin is in the process of applying for a position with the Border Patrol. He's been pre-selected and is now going through the interview process, and if he gets a position it means a 15 month training down in Arizona, followed by a posting on the "northern border" which could be close by or it could be way far away. If I get one of the positions that I just applied for, and then he gets the Border Patrol job, it could mean me leaving St. Vincent a lot sooner than I want to. Really, I love working for St. Vincent and I don't want to have to leave at all in the near future if I'm able to get the kind of position that I would really like to have.
Right now I'm just playing the what-if game, and I know that it's not the most helpful thinking in the world. I've been training myself for years to just take things as they come, and worry about what I can worry about in the present. By submitting my applications for these positions, I'm doing that. I'm trying to further my career, working within the restraints that I currently have. But there are so many things on the table right now, and it's hard for me to ignore the possibilities. I mean, there's also that what-if that includes me not being able to go with Colin when he does his training, which would give me 15 months here in Michigan while he's in Arizona. It would basically be like another deployment, except that I could fly down there and enjoy the sunshine every once in a while.
At this point I really just want SOMETHING to be just a little cut-and-dry. I know that's a silly thing to expect from the greater powers that be, but it would be really nice if Colin and I could get to a place where we're both happy with our jobs and can just settle for a while. As much as I abhor being too predictable, I do enjoy a little bit of solid ground under my feet from which to enact my random flights of fancy.
At any rate, cross your fingers, pray, light some incense... I'd prefer no virgin or animal sacrifices in honor of my much-needed luck but hey, if that's your thing, whatever.