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i would like to get away from my distorted interpertations of my head and talk about something serious. Well it is offical, another one of my heros is gone, one of beloved musicians, that brought me into so many things i listen to today. Yes Elliott Smith is dead, he stabbed himself in the chest, i can't tell u how i feel, it is like a numbness, and it defantely hasn't hit in, i mean last week i was like i need to email elliott so he can play here and now he is dead. It is something that is hard to comprehend, your hero, your superman dieing its truly just too fucked up to think about. I heard when i called brett after buying the new rapture and shins and i asked him if he would like to chill out and listen to some music. Than he said, Elliott is dead and i just was like, about to laugh thinking it was a joke, but he was serious. So we drank and bummed out and i spent the night alone, and now he is playing it's so surreal. To think in 2000 my cousin asked to go see him and of course i didnt know who he was and i was broke so i didnt go and wow do i regret that now. I still am convinced he is not dead, he is alive i know he is, and he didnt stab himself in the chest, one of my hero's is gone and no one can replace that ever. I just hope he rocks out with jim and jimi and kurt and plays the song he could never write. I love you Elliott for all the pleasure i got from your music and all the times i have with it and i will never let you leave the rotation, your in my heart forever, i love you man. Good night sweet prince i will miss you always.