crap
yep, thats pretty much how i feel...crappy. today sucked, i don't know how i do it sometimes, maybe kyle's right, maybe i am just a little stronger than i think...in resistance anyways, in plastering on the smile over and over...i guess maybe my family might think somethings up, cuz i haven't hardly talked to them in like...3 days...i feel bad, but i just need to be alone...school sucked too, cept for our fun english test, but i was pissed cuz im losing my vocabulary, and i couldn't think of a ton of words...*:r* i don't even know why im writing here...it makes me feel a little better i guess, but i just dont really have anything to write...well i do, but i havent a clue how to say it...i prolly just fucked my chances with my class too, cuz im skipping out on the big soccer game tonight, but theres just no way i can take anymore...