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i missed three calls from tom today while i was in class. and i could have answered them if he had waited like... 5 more minutes to call. i am slightly distressed about this.
class is cool though i guess. at least it will be cool to be first response certified. and not have to take health class my senior year. 5 hours of lecture is a bit rough though. also, it made me think a lot about sam. and how first response doesn't mean shit when people die on impact.
my life is unexciting. i haven't left my house since tom left except to go to austin. i laughed there this weekend though. and it felt good. i cried though too. we were watching P.S. i love you at O's house. it was the first time i have cried since tom left and i fucking balled my eyes out. probably because of how much i miss him and how much that movie made me afraid that he could be gone before we ever get a chance to spend our lives together. i haven't really felt okay since.
and if there are somebody else's arms which could suffice..
i don't ever want to know.
class is cool though i guess. at least it will be cool to be first response certified. and not have to take health class my senior year. 5 hours of lecture is a bit rough though. also, it made me think a lot about sam. and how first response doesn't mean shit when people die on impact.
my life is unexciting. i haven't left my house since tom left except to go to austin. i laughed there this weekend though. and it felt good. i cried though too. we were watching P.S. i love you at O's house. it was the first time i have cried since tom left and i fucking balled my eyes out. probably because of how much i miss him and how much that movie made me afraid that he could be gone before we ever get a chance to spend our lives together. i haven't really felt okay since.
and if there are somebody else's arms which could suffice..
i don't ever want to know.