I love your love to be loved, lovely
i think that i have felt even weirder when i dont write in here, it is likt the only plcae i feel i can really put down what i feel and not care who knows... fun, yeaaaaaa ima retard.
so things are going... lost our game today, i lost it... if just felt like crying, i know im a big pussie, but it just sucked, i couldnt handle it. i dont think that everything that goes on is truly needed, but it happens anyway, so whatever right? i duno, im so supersticous... i feel like i fucked up our game... i had tape on my shoe, and that freeked me out, i duno, it just feels like the whole butterfly effect thing, i dont friggin know why my shoes fell apart anyways, im wiiiiiiicked pissed.
i just feel like i could have done a helluva lot more, it wasnt my best game and im mad that my grandparents and my little "fanclub" was there to see it... i feel like such a sellout. like everyone expects me to preform, and i just cant all the time.
well apart from my rejectness...
haha ummm, i took some vikaden on thursday... it definately mad my day more interesting... and it isnt like i did it just to do it... my ribs werre/ are all bruised up from, as quacks calls it cant "winnafuckinggame" game. so i got some from abbey for 3 bags of....... candycorn.. what do u think i was going to say. so anywho. we had captains practice that day. that was, umm, made me realise how much more of a cocky ba... jerk... A... some certain people are after they get their name all over the paper... kinda sorta makes me feel reaaaally shitty, and i hope they know that.. not like it would matter cus they dont give a shit about the rest of the world anyways,,, cus its all about them right?
but yea, i made steph fdrive me everywhere cus i was incapable... and i know i was a really retttttttttarded person the whole day so im kind of embarassed, and i know i said shit at the spag that made me sound wicked dumb, but i cant remember what... but i do know that the ride home with steph nicole tara and quacks was the fuuuunniest ride ever! hahaha <3
and stephie im sorry u n megs got lost coming to allies... we were like what the hell are they doing! lol...
so cool, im geting up tomorrow, geting gas and film and going to sunapee. all the foliage has changed there and im gonna bust out the nice camera and get some real pictured <3....
and maaaaaaabey ill visit brandon why im there :p
scared? hell yea.
excited? very much so
kinda mad that the whoooole world knows about everyting in my personal life? yea, but suppose that it is my fault, cus i put stuff in here... but still, not everyone reads it...
kind of embarassing i think.
My phone bills stacked up by my bedside,
My island nights are all spent dying
with your picture, you're looking surprised
You're what makes New England so great
Wait for summer to become wrought with lips,
my wishful thinking
so things are going... lost our game today, i lost it... if just felt like crying, i know im a big pussie, but it just sucked, i couldnt handle it. i dont think that everything that goes on is truly needed, but it happens anyway, so whatever right? i duno, im so supersticous... i feel like i fucked up our game... i had tape on my shoe, and that freeked me out, i duno, it just feels like the whole butterfly effect thing, i dont friggin know why my shoes fell apart anyways, im wiiiiiiicked pissed.
i just feel like i could have done a helluva lot more, it wasnt my best game and im mad that my grandparents and my little "fanclub" was there to see it... i feel like such a sellout. like everyone expects me to preform, and i just cant all the time.
well apart from my rejectness...
haha ummm, i took some vikaden on thursday... it definately mad my day more interesting... and it isnt like i did it just to do it... my ribs werre/ are all bruised up from, as quacks calls it cant "winnafuckinggame" game. so i got some from abbey for 3 bags of....... candycorn.. what do u think i was going to say. so anywho. we had captains practice that day. that was, umm, made me realise how much more of a cocky ba... jerk... A... some certain people are after they get their name all over the paper... kinda sorta makes me feel reaaaally shitty, and i hope they know that.. not like it would matter cus they dont give a shit about the rest of the world anyways,,, cus its all about them right?
but yea, i made steph fdrive me everywhere cus i was incapable... and i know i was a really retttttttttarded person the whole day so im kind of embarassed, and i know i said shit at the spag that made me sound wicked dumb, but i cant remember what... but i do know that the ride home with steph nicole tara and quacks was the fuuuunniest ride ever! hahaha <3
and stephie im sorry u n megs got lost coming to allies... we were like what the hell are they doing! lol...
so cool, im geting up tomorrow, geting gas and film and going to sunapee. all the foliage has changed there and im gonna bust out the nice camera and get some real pictured <3....
and maaaaaaabey ill visit brandon why im there :p
scared? hell yea.
excited? very much so
kinda mad that the whoooole world knows about everyting in my personal life? yea, but suppose that it is my fault, cus i put stuff in here... but still, not everyone reads it...
kind of embarassing i think.
My phone bills stacked up by my bedside,
My island nights are all spent dying
with your picture, you're looking surprised
You're what makes New England so great
Wait for summer to become wrought with lips,
my wishful thinking