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...but why do I feel so... incomplete about it.
maybe it's because I miss home so much
I miss my family.
I'm passing chem.
I'm ranked #1 on the C team for AcDec...
All these great things...
But I miss everything.
everyone.
I miss waking up at 6:45 and being happy about it.
Now I wake up an hour earlier to march for band.
I miss saying the pledge every morning and it meaning something to me. Just the fact that I was able to be in such a magnificent place with the best people I could imagine was enough to make me realize how great it was to not have laws preventing me from doing it.
Now...I walk down the hallways and just wish I could be anywhere but THS.
I miss going to sleep and knowing that nothing would ever happen to me where I was at. The fact that I had a circle of girls who I love like my sisters within like 50 ft at the most and a group of guys across a dirt road that would protect me no matter what was the most comforting thing on the face of the planet to me.
Now, I wonder what would happen if I were walking to class and someone did something, which isn't too far from reality in my school.
I miss that six minute walk to nat-e-con. I miss walking with Kat. I miss going and being teased by Billy and Jordy and Joey and Henry. ...yeah, even henry. I miss being so secluded from the rest of camp to hang with the nat-e-boys. I miss building terrariums... I loved walking there, knowing I would have so much fun that day.
Now... I hate the two minute drive to school. I know that it won't be as fun as I want it to be. I know I'll have to deal with all the idiots who are wasting time. who would rather be out getting drunk and fucking their friends...
I even miss teaching that damned EnviSci class... I miss proving kids' opinions wrong about tons of stuff. I miss hearing their opinions about things, like what would happen if a road went through nat-e-con...
now, I would rather have an entire day of all the EnviSci kids than 50 mins. of my Latin II class. At least the bad scouts' scoutmasters would do something about the troublemakers. At school, I hear teachers talking about how parents don't care that their kids act up in class and disrespect teachers.
I miss my bodyguards, Matt and Ross. I gave my sweat and blood to ross... and he gave his sweat (but not blood... he was never bleeding).
I walk the hallways and simply hope that no one will do anything to me. I know that Byron is walking with me in the afternoons... but I still feel vulnerable...
Why can't school just hurry up and end?
maybe it's because I miss home so much
I miss my family.
I'm passing chem.
I'm ranked #1 on the C team for AcDec...
All these great things...
But I miss everything.
everyone.
I miss waking up at 6:45 and being happy about it.
Now I wake up an hour earlier to march for band.
I miss saying the pledge every morning and it meaning something to me. Just the fact that I was able to be in such a magnificent place with the best people I could imagine was enough to make me realize how great it was to not have laws preventing me from doing it.
Now...I walk down the hallways and just wish I could be anywhere but THS.
I miss going to sleep and knowing that nothing would ever happen to me where I was at. The fact that I had a circle of girls who I love like my sisters within like 50 ft at the most and a group of guys across a dirt road that would protect me no matter what was the most comforting thing on the face of the planet to me.
Now, I wonder what would happen if I were walking to class and someone did something, which isn't too far from reality in my school.
I miss that six minute walk to nat-e-con. I miss walking with Kat. I miss going and being teased by Billy and Jordy and Joey and Henry. ...yeah, even henry. I miss being so secluded from the rest of camp to hang with the nat-e-boys. I miss building terrariums... I loved walking there, knowing I would have so much fun that day.
Now... I hate the two minute drive to school. I know that it won't be as fun as I want it to be. I know I'll have to deal with all the idiots who are wasting time. who would rather be out getting drunk and fucking their friends...
I even miss teaching that damned EnviSci class... I miss proving kids' opinions wrong about tons of stuff. I miss hearing their opinions about things, like what would happen if a road went through nat-e-con...
now, I would rather have an entire day of all the EnviSci kids than 50 mins. of my Latin II class. At least the bad scouts' scoutmasters would do something about the troublemakers. At school, I hear teachers talking about how parents don't care that their kids act up in class and disrespect teachers.
I miss my bodyguards, Matt and Ross. I gave my sweat and blood to ross... and he gave his sweat (but not blood... he was never bleeding).
I walk the hallways and simply hope that no one will do anything to me. I know that Byron is walking with me in the afternoons... but I still feel vulnerable...
Why can't school just hurry up and end?