Is Life worth it
Well. if you havent heard the worst thing that could ahve ever happen to me happend this weekend!! I lost my best friend,the one i loved dear, and the thing is i would have dont ANYTHING and EVERYTHING for him. He was everything thing to me because athough he messed up sometimes he was always there, and people do mess up. But this weekend he messed up to the point that i can't forgive yet alone forget. I even warned him if he did waht he did i would never talk to him again and then he still did it. Now I have nothing....NOTHING i have lost him, his trust and his betrayal.What now......It makes me question why there even is life is it to just so you can live to be hurt.. and if so why is it worth living?? How could he do this? I haven't found a girl who i was interested in that was interested in me in 2 years and of course he knows this and the one girl in two years he FUCKS....it makes me question if i had more girls in the past would he had dont stuff with them too. And the sad thing is through all this i know know he'd do it over agian in a heartbeat. If he cared about me so much like he said he does why would he do this to his best friend.. This has put me as much down if not more when i lost my mother. And im going through the same after effect shit.. aI havent been able to eat.. and if i do try i just throw it up... so why is this all worth it how is a one night stand worth this amazing friendship that we had. We connected so well he could finish my sentences and i could start his it was almost like we were one. IF his name was in a sentence when mine was to, and over a one night night stand he was willing to give that all up.. How do you forgive someone for that. I can't take this anymore i just don't know what to do. And he sits there and giggles about this situation. It just all leads me to one question. Is life worth all this pain??