Another day
Okay so I know it's been a really long time since I wrote on this thing, but I'm bored out of my mind at work and decided that I should do something a little bit productive.
So this week was Valentines Day. Another year that I don't have a Valentine. It's really irritating, I want a Valentine, why can't I be happy in a relationship on that day? It sucks. I want to go out to dinner with a guy and just have a good time and get flowers, and gifts too. But apparently that's just not for me, I can't have that kind of stuff. I know I always base things on my weight, but I mean gosh does personality have nothing to do with it, I'm a pretty nice person, and I think I'm cute in my own way. Whatever, maybe next year.
I know this is pretty sad, but when I go out and I see bigger size girls holding hands with guys and stuff, I feel like I should be able to have that too. Another reason may be that I'm just not attracted to bigger guys. I like them pretty filled out, but not too much, and all those guys already have girls. Oh well hopefully sometime, I just don't like going home and having my family ask me if there is any guy in my life and I have to repeatedly tell them no because no one wants to be with me. Which is really depressing. Maybe its because I don't get out very much or maybe I just haven't met the right guy for me yet. I really hope that I'll find someone in the future, be able to get married and have kids. Honestly that's a huge goal for me in my life, I just have to find the guy or he has to find me. I'm serious about going to one of those online dating websites if I can't find anyone. I'm thinking 25, 26 should be a good age, god knows I don't want to be a virgin until then. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens and if god has that path set out for me then I just have to let "destiny" have its way. I hope it doesn't take too long though.
Well I'm going to go back to reading my stories, hopefully Just Like in the Movies will be updated soon, I love that story and I miss it. Oh HARRY POTTER, THE BOOK AND THE MOVIE COMES OUT IN THE SUMMER OF THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO EXCITED I'M TOTALLY GOING TO WAIT IN LINE AT BORDERS AGAIN.
So this week was Valentines Day. Another year that I don't have a Valentine. It's really irritating, I want a Valentine, why can't I be happy in a relationship on that day? It sucks. I want to go out to dinner with a guy and just have a good time and get flowers, and gifts too. But apparently that's just not for me, I can't have that kind of stuff. I know I always base things on my weight, but I mean gosh does personality have nothing to do with it, I'm a pretty nice person, and I think I'm cute in my own way. Whatever, maybe next year.
I know this is pretty sad, but when I go out and I see bigger size girls holding hands with guys and stuff, I feel like I should be able to have that too. Another reason may be that I'm just not attracted to bigger guys. I like them pretty filled out, but not too much, and all those guys already have girls. Oh well hopefully sometime, I just don't like going home and having my family ask me if there is any guy in my life and I have to repeatedly tell them no because no one wants to be with me. Which is really depressing. Maybe its because I don't get out very much or maybe I just haven't met the right guy for me yet. I really hope that I'll find someone in the future, be able to get married and have kids. Honestly that's a huge goal for me in my life, I just have to find the guy or he has to find me. I'm serious about going to one of those online dating websites if I can't find anyone. I'm thinking 25, 26 should be a good age, god knows I don't want to be a virgin until then. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what happens and if god has that path set out for me then I just have to let "destiny" have its way. I hope it doesn't take too long though.
Well I'm going to go back to reading my stories, hopefully Just Like in the Movies will be updated soon, I love that story and I miss it. Oh HARRY POTTER, THE BOOK AND THE MOVIE COMES OUT IN THE SUMMER OF THIS YEAR!!!!!!!!!! I'M SO EXCITED I'M TOTALLY GOING TO WAIT IN LINE AT BORDERS AGAIN.