Good stuff with bad undertones.
Last night I went to an NA meeting. I'm not an addict but it was very interesting. The one huge thing I took out of it is to take advantage of the now and to take chances. Anyway it was good.
Afterwards I went and stayed at Shane's house. Did the cuddling thing. That was good too. I think I'm even more confused then I was before. I don't fall for guys very often. Of course I choose the one with the girlfriend. I am so messed up. I feel bad for myself, I don't like feeling that way. I'm very lost and I'm definately going to get hurt in the end. I know that but I can't help how I feel about someone. No matter how many people tell me it's wrong I can't help it. So that's not good lol.
Also good. I had coffee with Brent today. He's my favorite Seattle gay boy. I haven't seen him in forever. I missed him. Note to self: see Brent more.
I'm going to go lay in bed and watch Buffy in an attempt to not think about anything. Ya right. Good luck to me on that pssh!
Afterwards I went and stayed at Shane's house. Did the cuddling thing. That was good too. I think I'm even more confused then I was before. I don't fall for guys very often. Of course I choose the one with the girlfriend. I am so messed up. I feel bad for myself, I don't like feeling that way. I'm very lost and I'm definately going to get hurt in the end. I know that but I can't help how I feel about someone. No matter how many people tell me it's wrong I can't help it. So that's not good lol.
Also good. I had coffee with Brent today. He's my favorite Seattle gay boy. I haven't seen him in forever. I missed him. Note to self: see Brent more.
I'm going to go lay in bed and watch Buffy in an attempt to not think about anything. Ya right. Good luck to me on that pssh!