FM - January - Tug of War

[wage_this_rage]

I’ve never really wanted to face my powers. I’ve just always thought, hey I have them, why not use them? My dad told me some stuff about them. He gave me the whole Ascension and if I use them after I might as well be signing up for an early grave spiel. But, I guess I never realized the truth behind them until the day of the blizzard. When Lacey started asking Caleb all those questions about our powers. I didn’t say anything, I just mostly listened, because I didn’t know most of the stuff he explained. It was pretty cool, hearing about it. How our powers date so far back and all that. But what has me confused is how he said that there were families named Barrett in the old colony. He was going to check on it, but I’ve not talked to him since. Part of me is curious, intrigued even, about all this stuff. Then there’s the part of me that never wanted to know. That just likes being in the dark. Just the guy with powers that needs to be careful once he turns eighteen.

Then there’s Lacey, who pretty much told me she was going to break up with me if I use them. Like, at all. I’m never allowed to use them. What’s the point in having powers if you can’t use them? I don’t want my girlfriend to break up with me. But it’s a big inner battle. The seduction of the powers that Caleb talked about. It’s real. It’s a constant struggle. A tug of war not to use them. Not to just do something because I can.

But I don’t. Not only would my girlfriend break up with me but she is a slayer which means she can totally kick my ass.