We have no use for the truth
So...this is intersting....this morning I looked in my email mailbx thingy and low and behold there was an emial from her. I was expecting myself to be mad but i was really just suprised and I still believe I've drempt it all, so I saved i on my computer, just for evidence. And if i doubt myself then to read the email. She seemed sensire and...I dont know. I believe her but I'm kinda afraid too. i should know better and...ugh. I just want this to turn out ok. I really do. i dont want anything bad to happen to her and i dont want to cut my wrists like every five seconds and i want to keep it that way. I have to admit something: I miss her. A lot. Everything I miss and would give anything to have it back. even in a friend way, actually i would rather have her back in a friend way. Life is harder without her but i know i can make it through....but i dont want to do it without her. And at this point, I wont. I'm reaching her just a little bit and I have to keep pushing through. For my sainty. For my sake and for hers. I've accepted that i cant live without her and that....that's something I've been struggling with but as of right now I'm alrght. I'll make it through and I'll be ok. At least i hope so
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