Bitchity bitch bitch bitch
I tell myself again and again that this should not be used as only a forum to bitch about this, that, and the other, but here I am, nearly 2 months from my last entry and all I want to do is bitch... So tune out if you wish. Otherwise,
Proceed
I'm damned near overwhelmed. There's a lot of stuff that's just up in the air right now and I can't make myself look at things objectively. It's just a mountain that feels impossible to climb.
I'm applying for jobs: It's funny, I've applied for 7 already, I have 10 that I have started and should finish tomorrow before I go to bed. I've been at this for less than 2 weeks, and I just have this silly sinking feeling that this is going to turn out like last year, me wishing, but not even landing an interview. Listen to how silly that sounds. Last year, I started applying about 1 month before the school year started... this year I am nearly 4 months out. I can't talk myself out of this damn talk. All I can make myself do is plod along with these job applications
In addition to this, Emily read my tarot this weekend. I asked her about my career and the whole celtic cross made tons of sense (turmoil right now, my move to education turned up a number of marriage cards --apparently a good think, think career+me=match made in heaven), but the last card that turned up suggested that I'd be bored in my new job. What the hell. So I'm thinking about self fulfilling prophecies and hoping that it doesn't happen to me. *aside on the tarot... it was really interesting. I don't know if I quite believe in this stuff, but I certainly felt some sort of power while being read, it was wholly strange*
I'm taking a class: This weekend was my first weekend of classes at the University of St. Thomas. I'm taking a Multiculturalism in Education class to enable me to renew my MN teaching license. When I signed up for the class I thought that it was going to be a 2 weekend workshop, but there are a number of projects that I have to finish in the next month or so. They look worse on paper that the teacher is making them out to be, but damn it... it's still a hell of a lot of work.
In addition to this, I'm trying to keep this class taking a secret at work. Folks were asking me what I was doing this weekend and I just had to LIE to them. I'm not a good lier, it stresses me out, but I felt that it was required. I'm really not looking forward to it coming up again this week.
I'm missing a bunch of trumpet lessons: and I have to do make up lessons. Scheduling these with slightly ticked off parents is no fun. Really, I think there is only one slight ticked off parent, but I don't like the bad vibes flying my way.
I'm starting to think about moving again: Lease is up at the end of July, and I'm planning on moving out and living alone... but because I don't know what I'll be doing, how much money I'll be making, or where I will be working, I can't really look for a place to live. It's too early to look, and I'm still stressed.
I really want to buy a cheap loft. There are a couple places that seem to have a great value, and decent locations, but again, too early to look. Maybe a goal for next year.
My car is fucked up: The Passenger side mirror is just hanging there, my back window vent is stuck in the open position, and it makes some pretty strange sounds when making sharp turns. I need to get it fixed too, but I'm too scared. I just keep imagining a $2000 price tag and I'm not really ready for that type of spending... I'm saving up for a condo afterall. I am visiting my sister in June. I'm pretty excited about that, she is still living outside of Denver, so I'll spend a couple days at her house and either spend a day with her and her husband in Denver, or --if she can't get a day off work-- then I'll rent a car and enjoy Denver solo. I don't know what to do there, but I'm sure I'll be able to find something.
I'm pretty excited about The Elephant Man. I hope to be able to see it next week. I really enjoy modern opera. I'm a bit dissapointed that I did't see the more mainstream operas that were scheduled this year, but I guess there's always next year. The '06-'07 season looks pretty good!
This week is a 4 day work week (I'm taking Friday off)... I'm pretty excited about it. Hopefully more applications and maybe something a bit more enjoyable.
Take care
Proceed
I'm damned near overwhelmed. There's a lot of stuff that's just up in the air right now and I can't make myself look at things objectively. It's just a mountain that feels impossible to climb.
I'm applying for jobs: It's funny, I've applied for 7 already, I have 10 that I have started and should finish tomorrow before I go to bed. I've been at this for less than 2 weeks, and I just have this silly sinking feeling that this is going to turn out like last year, me wishing, but not even landing an interview. Listen to how silly that sounds. Last year, I started applying about 1 month before the school year started... this year I am nearly 4 months out. I can't talk myself out of this damn talk. All I can make myself do is plod along with these job applications
In addition to this, Emily read my tarot this weekend. I asked her about my career and the whole celtic cross made tons of sense (turmoil right now, my move to education turned up a number of marriage cards --apparently a good think, think career+me=match made in heaven), but the last card that turned up suggested that I'd be bored in my new job. What the hell. So I'm thinking about self fulfilling prophecies and hoping that it doesn't happen to me. *aside on the tarot... it was really interesting. I don't know if I quite believe in this stuff, but I certainly felt some sort of power while being read, it was wholly strange*
I'm taking a class: This weekend was my first weekend of classes at the University of St. Thomas. I'm taking a Multiculturalism in Education class to enable me to renew my MN teaching license. When I signed up for the class I thought that it was going to be a 2 weekend workshop, but there are a number of projects that I have to finish in the next month or so. They look worse on paper that the teacher is making them out to be, but damn it... it's still a hell of a lot of work.
In addition to this, I'm trying to keep this class taking a secret at work. Folks were asking me what I was doing this weekend and I just had to LIE to them. I'm not a good lier, it stresses me out, but I felt that it was required. I'm really not looking forward to it coming up again this week.
I'm missing a bunch of trumpet lessons: and I have to do make up lessons. Scheduling these with slightly ticked off parents is no fun. Really, I think there is only one slight ticked off parent, but I don't like the bad vibes flying my way.
I'm starting to think about moving again: Lease is up at the end of July, and I'm planning on moving out and living alone... but because I don't know what I'll be doing, how much money I'll be making, or where I will be working, I can't really look for a place to live. It's too early to look, and I'm still stressed.
I really want to buy a cheap loft. There are a couple places that seem to have a great value, and decent locations, but again, too early to look. Maybe a goal for next year.
My car is fucked up: The Passenger side mirror is just hanging there, my back window vent is stuck in the open position, and it makes some pretty strange sounds when making sharp turns. I need to get it fixed too, but I'm too scared. I just keep imagining a $2000 price tag and I'm not really ready for that type of spending... I'm saving up for a condo afterall. I am visiting my sister in June. I'm pretty excited about that, she is still living outside of Denver, so I'll spend a couple days at her house and either spend a day with her and her husband in Denver, or --if she can't get a day off work-- then I'll rent a car and enjoy Denver solo. I don't know what to do there, but I'm sure I'll be able to find something.
I'm pretty excited about The Elephant Man. I hope to be able to see it next week. I really enjoy modern opera. I'm a bit dissapointed that I did't see the more mainstream operas that were scheduled this year, but I guess there's always next year. The '06-'07 season looks pretty good!
This week is a 4 day work week (I'm taking Friday off)... I'm pretty excited about it. Hopefully more applications and maybe something a bit more enjoyable.
Take care