Jun 11, 2004 23:45
I see that another Friday is upon us. I'm not feeling like I'm really into anything at this point. The Stanley Cup Finals left me feeling empty. Another year wasted on people who don't appreciate the cup, Floridians. I feel like that's what's going on in my life lately. I feel like all that I do goes unappreciated. Perhaps it's true, perhaps it isn't. The fact remains that I feel that way. Maybe I expect too much, maybe I'm way off on this whole thing. I don't know. There is one thing I know for certain, television is innately evil. They try to push things on you, like romanticism or someone's version of justice and that's what you ought to believe. I know that the less I watch television, particularly any kind of show, rather than documentary or sport (without sound), the better off I am. Television is the primary source of building up people's hopes and dreams in an unjustified manner and it really causes more trouble than good.
I can't wait to go try something else. I feel like a square peg in a round hole. I need to try my hand in something else. I hope things don't end up the same. I would hate to end up stuck being the same asshole I am now, but on a different continent. Wouldn't that be terrible?