It's a meme, it's a game, NO, it's a HYPOCRITE!!!!
As I indicated by the title, I'm well aware that I'm about to use Livejournal for the one thing that I always complain about. I'm about to use it to gripe my own personal emo bullshit to the rest of the world. I know I'm being a hypocrite, so none of you point this out. Ever.
I've come to a rather inescapable conclusion as of late. I'm terrible at making friends. I've been in this country since October, and there's no one. I don't know what it is about me, I seriously don't. I think going to SAA meant that I missed out on some standard socialization skills most people learn in high school. Whatever it is, I'm flying home to Chicago for the weekend because I simply can't stand another weekend where everyone else is having fun and I'm just sitting in my room watching old movies.
I'm really starting to hate who I am. I wanna go to the pub and throw back a few with my friends. I want a girl to look at me and smile. That's all. Right now, that's pretty much all I want out of life. I don't know why I'm the only one that this eludes, but I'm getting that deep down Travis Bickle (the protagonist in "Taxi Driver") feeling. Like I'm in the world but not of it.
Christ, this is so trite. There's 20 bagillion jerkoffs posting the same crap on the internet. I feel so stupid doing this, but I'm at a lose for what else to do. Everything just seems so much harder without friends. Everything. It's hard to get up the motivation to do much at all. If anyone has a suggestion, give it here, because I'm at a loss.
I've come to a rather inescapable conclusion as of late. I'm terrible at making friends. I've been in this country since October, and there's no one. I don't know what it is about me, I seriously don't. I think going to SAA meant that I missed out on some standard socialization skills most people learn in high school. Whatever it is, I'm flying home to Chicago for the weekend because I simply can't stand another weekend where everyone else is having fun and I'm just sitting in my room watching old movies.
I'm really starting to hate who I am. I wanna go to the pub and throw back a few with my friends. I want a girl to look at me and smile. That's all. Right now, that's pretty much all I want out of life. I don't know why I'm the only one that this eludes, but I'm getting that deep down Travis Bickle (the protagonist in "Taxi Driver") feeling. Like I'm in the world but not of it.
Christ, this is so trite. There's 20 bagillion jerkoffs posting the same crap on the internet. I feel so stupid doing this, but I'm at a lose for what else to do. Everything just seems so much harder without friends. Everything. It's hard to get up the motivation to do much at all. If anyone has a suggestion, give it here, because I'm at a loss.