:') <3 Brent
Wenna: i hate this episode ;_;
Wenna: bastard turns his DAUGHTER AND HIS DOG INTO A CHIMERA
Wenna: ;_; so sad
Xenilno: I'd turn my daughter and dog into bratwurst
Xenilno: damn I love bratwurst
Xenilno: with spicy mustard
Xenilno: and SAUERKRAUT
Wenna: id turn your face into bratwurst
Wenna: except instead of bratwurst, i'd do something that tastes good
Wenna: OH DAMN SON, THAT JUST HAPPENED
Xenilno: I'm not talking to you anymore
Wenna: bwahahhaha
Xenilno: I'm not putting up with this brat-hate
Wenna: <3 i love you
Wenna: even though you like disgusting meats
So uh. I suppose I should update this. I've been working at this place for a while that is awesome, except that it's sooo slooooow so I'm not getting any work. That sort of sucks. But it's a nice place. I'm treated well. I got a second job at Critter Co, for long time friends you may remember that I worked there many years ago. It was actually my first job in the pet industry. I am doing some grooming there now. It's not much but it's something. :C
Not much else has been happening that's exciting. There was the Brent visit which was... just full of surprises to be honest. I had sort of gotten to a point where I just didn't care at all because he wasn't THERE, emotionally, and I know it's not cause he doesn't care but just because he never learned how to deal with emotions. His or other peoples'. But I didn't feel like dealing with it. And then there was Mat, who was wonderful but just really doesn't know how to listen for shit. So I stopped caring about that, too. And when I say stopped caring, I mean I got so upset about the whole situation(s) that I just said FUCK IT.
Then Brent got here, and it was just cool at first. We laughed and goofed off. We were friends and it was great and I didn't expect anything more but THEN. Then. Next thing I know we're cuddling up watching fucking Babe. Yeah the one about the pig. And then later we were making out. And then ... other things. And so we're laying there and he says something about being in a relationship, and I say "Whoa, wait, we're in a relationship now?" and he just says "Well it's kind of hard to deny it, isn't it?" And, well.... I suppose it is. I couldn't think of a single GOOD reason why we couldn't/shouldn't. We had both wanted this for so long and as it turns out the (emotional) distance was because he hadn't wanted to interfere with Cody and I. And that meant everything to me. Cause seriously, how is it NOT the most awesome thing to love someone so much that you put their happiness before your own. That's what I want in a partner, it's what I deserve. Because that's the way I love others. I did have to have a srsfaec talk with him though... Told him that if we were going to do this that we both needed to be VERY CLEAR about what we wanted. And then told him that we would have to do something about the distance at some point. Before I could even say anything else, he started talking about getting a job/apartment (presumably here, he's already got a job there) which is good because I don't want to move to New Jersey. But I would. I totally would. He's more than worth it.
Basically any reservations I ever had were blown away. He's very thoughtful, polite, affectionate, respectful, and loving. I trust him so very deeply, which is very special. Because I don't know that I'd be able to trust anyone to that extent again ever.
It does kind of suck, being so far away. But it's temporary.
Wenna: bastard turns his DAUGHTER AND HIS DOG INTO A CHIMERA
Wenna: ;_; so sad
Xenilno: I'd turn my daughter and dog into bratwurst
Xenilno: damn I love bratwurst
Xenilno: with spicy mustard
Xenilno: and SAUERKRAUT
Wenna: id turn your face into bratwurst
Wenna: except instead of bratwurst, i'd do something that tastes good
Wenna: OH DAMN SON, THAT JUST HAPPENED
Xenilno: I'm not talking to you anymore
Wenna: bwahahhaha
Xenilno: I'm not putting up with this brat-hate
Wenna: <3 i love you
Wenna: even though you like disgusting meats
So uh. I suppose I should update this. I've been working at this place for a while that is awesome, except that it's sooo slooooow so I'm not getting any work. That sort of sucks. But it's a nice place. I'm treated well. I got a second job at Critter Co, for long time friends you may remember that I worked there many years ago. It was actually my first job in the pet industry. I am doing some grooming there now. It's not much but it's something. :C
Not much else has been happening that's exciting. There was the Brent visit which was... just full of surprises to be honest. I had sort of gotten to a point where I just didn't care at all because he wasn't THERE, emotionally, and I know it's not cause he doesn't care but just because he never learned how to deal with emotions. His or other peoples'. But I didn't feel like dealing with it. And then there was Mat, who was wonderful but just really doesn't know how to listen for shit. So I stopped caring about that, too. And when I say stopped caring, I mean I got so upset about the whole situation(s) that I just said FUCK IT.
Then Brent got here, and it was just cool at first. We laughed and goofed off. We were friends and it was great and I didn't expect anything more but THEN. Then. Next thing I know we're cuddling up watching fucking Babe. Yeah the one about the pig. And then later we were making out. And then ... other things. And so we're laying there and he says something about being in a relationship, and I say "Whoa, wait, we're in a relationship now?" and he just says "Well it's kind of hard to deny it, isn't it?" And, well.... I suppose it is. I couldn't think of a single GOOD reason why we couldn't/shouldn't. We had both wanted this for so long and as it turns out the (emotional) distance was because he hadn't wanted to interfere with Cody and I. And that meant everything to me. Cause seriously, how is it NOT the most awesome thing to love someone so much that you put their happiness before your own. That's what I want in a partner, it's what I deserve. Because that's the way I love others. I did have to have a srsfaec talk with him though... Told him that if we were going to do this that we both needed to be VERY CLEAR about what we wanted. And then told him that we would have to do something about the distance at some point. Before I could even say anything else, he started talking about getting a job/apartment (presumably here, he's already got a job there) which is good because I don't want to move to New Jersey. But I would. I totally would. He's more than worth it.
Basically any reservations I ever had were blown away. He's very thoughtful, polite, affectionate, respectful, and loving. I trust him so very deeply, which is very special. Because I don't know that I'd be able to trust anyone to that extent again ever.
It does kind of suck, being so far away. But it's temporary.