I'm confused
So...things with Aimee are cool, kinda.
I really don't know to be honest, I mean. I don't know where we stand. We're basically "just dating" so there's no ties and whatnot, I understand this.
Lately it's been confusing and I say this because...she'll hug me when I visit her...she'll hug me when I leave. Yet when it comes to work, if I ever see her there...she told me she doesn't want me to hug her then. I guess it's her way to prevent rumors spreading, cause she's had some bad experiences where faulty rumors about her got around....and yeah.
Also lately she's talked about other guys...like...so and so flirted with her, or....some dude gave her chocolates for Valentines day (she said his name like I'd know him so I assume he does or did work at Home Depot). When she mentioned him she said she likes him, and she felt she should've given him a hug but didn't cause he was a bit unkempt. (not her words but that's the basic idea)
So now I'm thinking....I discarded my plans to do something small for her on Valentines day cause I figured it woulda caused problems if people found out about it....(I was gonna attatch a rose to her work locker with a note for when she comes in during the morning.) So basically.... this other dude who works there does something and she woulda hugged him if he considered his hygene before doing so....yet I'm dating the chick and I don't even get hugs while we're there in general..
I dunno....I'm probably reading too much into it, worrying over nothing as usual...but it all seems contradictory.
I also feel like I've not let her see the side of me that I feel is one of my best qualities....which would be the quasi romantic side of me. I should probably try to compliment her more....I think it all the time, but it never transfers from my brain to my mouth and it frustrates me. I've also been holding back cause I know I tend to overdo it, and become overwhelming...which drives people off. So I guess most my problem is that I've got to find a balance.
I plan on thoughtfully writing out the concept I had for the note I would've attatched to the rose...whenever I complete it I'll probably post it here.
Oh well..
Not much else going on....I plan on getting rid of my car....there's nothing wrong with it. I love it.....but I live up North and a little sports car isn't cutting it during the winter months. So I'm planning on trading it in for an older 4x4...considering a Chevy Blazer atm....my mind's changed like 3-4 times already...so who knows what I'll end up with.
Well...time to get goin to bed soon. Later.
I really don't know to be honest, I mean. I don't know where we stand. We're basically "just dating" so there's no ties and whatnot, I understand this.
Lately it's been confusing and I say this because...she'll hug me when I visit her...she'll hug me when I leave. Yet when it comes to work, if I ever see her there...she told me she doesn't want me to hug her then. I guess it's her way to prevent rumors spreading, cause she's had some bad experiences where faulty rumors about her got around....and yeah.
Also lately she's talked about other guys...like...so and so flirted with her, or....some dude gave her chocolates for Valentines day (she said his name like I'd know him so I assume he does or did work at Home Depot). When she mentioned him she said she likes him, and she felt she should've given him a hug but didn't cause he was a bit unkempt. (not her words but that's the basic idea)
So now I'm thinking....I discarded my plans to do something small for her on Valentines day cause I figured it woulda caused problems if people found out about it....(I was gonna attatch a rose to her work locker with a note for when she comes in during the morning.) So basically.... this other dude who works there does something and she woulda hugged him if he considered his hygene before doing so....yet I'm dating the chick and I don't even get hugs while we're there in general..
I dunno....I'm probably reading too much into it, worrying over nothing as usual...but it all seems contradictory.
I also feel like I've not let her see the side of me that I feel is one of my best qualities....which would be the quasi romantic side of me. I should probably try to compliment her more....I think it all the time, but it never transfers from my brain to my mouth and it frustrates me. I've also been holding back cause I know I tend to overdo it, and become overwhelming...which drives people off. So I guess most my problem is that I've got to find a balance.
I plan on thoughtfully writing out the concept I had for the note I would've attatched to the rose...whenever I complete it I'll probably post it here.
Oh well..
Not much else going on....I plan on getting rid of my car....there's nothing wrong with it. I love it.....but I live up North and a little sports car isn't cutting it during the winter months. So I'm planning on trading it in for an older 4x4...considering a Chevy Blazer atm....my mind's changed like 3-4 times already...so who knows what I'll end up with.
Well...time to get goin to bed soon. Later.