What the hell am I doing?

[w1ck3dwitch]

Ok...so this is something I just wrote...

They Were Right About You (But Mostly Me)
In your absence,my thoughts take your place
I can't help but wonder
If this is you.
You walked away when I needed you the most,
loved you the least,
felt the emptiest.
I never asked for anything more than I deserved
But you.....
You denied every right I ever earned
From winning these battles with you
And with myself.
You retracted every punch I ever threw
In the face of my difficulties.
You made every insecurity-
Every tear
Every fear
Every wrong-
Resurface.
Did you know
That every time I gaze at the scars that lace my feeble,weakening body
I see your face
Right alongside of them?
The blood is on your hands and you don't even care.
Or do you even see
This hell you've created for me?
You,my love...
Oh,look what you've done to me.
Look upon me as I stand before you
Encircled by this bitterness,fear,sadness..
And adorned so beautifully
With perfect little scars-
Each you've created
With a word or a thought
That was intended for me
But somehow I never quite got.
Look at me
See what you've created
Don't look away..
You already earned the title of a coward
You won the part of the villain long ago,my darling
In this disaster script
That is my life.
The time has come
For me to give this up
I can't win
With you
I can't live with you.
Just look at me
As I walk away...
And see what you've done.
It's all I'll ever ask of you...
Don't you see
What your silence has done to me?