I only know how to be me. XX
So today has been a very interesting and kinda shitty day.
My day started off pretty swell. I copped 20 bucks and I already had good intensions for me (bad for SOME others) and decided that I was either going to use it to buy coke or E..
So I decided on buying coke. Everything was good even though the person I was buying it from made me kinda iffy for a few reasons that I'm not going to mention and I contiplated on buying it for awile. Finally I said fuck it and I did. BUT heres the shitty part.. I decided to make sure I got the approval from the one that I love before I did anything that was going to really upset him (even though I had already had the permission yeah PERMISSION to try it once). So yeah whatever he says it's okay if I swear on his life no crosses count that this will be the only time that I do it. (2nd if you count so call snorting a "line" with Billy). So I agreed but whattayaaa know.. right after I do it he decided to like ignore me the rest of the night. Not nessacarily ignore me, like if I said something to him he would respond just not in a very happy kinda way. He also decided to "write in his journal" for about a half hour and when he was finally done he just slept and listened to his head fones untill his ride came. I mean seriously. You said I could do something that you know I was looking forward to for like ever.. I agreed to only doing it once and you still had to make the time shitty for me. You got either upset or mad even though you told me I could If i promised WHICH I DID...yet you still ended up upset-mad. I even tried talking to you about it and you still refused to respond to even that. I don't get why you can make me swear on your life and blah blah blah and then get upset when you know I'm only trying to have a good time for the ONE time I'm actually allowed to do it. You know I can't have a good time when your mad or upset with me so why'd you even bothering telling me I could do it. You pretty much lied to me. I dunno. I just don't understand why you get like you do over some of the things that I do. I can honestly say that It never fails.
I dunno.. whatever.
I know im going to get shit for this from not only him but from a few other people and before you start to really get involved.. start getting mad and start either lecsuring me or bitching at me I want to say this..
My intensions arnt to start doing coke and E on a daily basis. I promised the one person that I actually love more then anything on this planet that I would only try it to see what it's like and now that I have I`m done. I plan on keeping my promise and I know I will because I don't go back on my word. I just hope you know that the things that were said to me because I was curious to how they felt and what they did where completely and totally out of line and unnessacary. Number one it hurts to think that I could be considered as someone that would throw their whole life away for drugs and also to not be able to keep their word. Well when I prove you all wrong be aware of how bad im going to shove it all in your faces.
Enough said.
Nighty nite kiddos.
xOoX*
<3
My day started off pretty swell. I copped 20 bucks and I already had good intensions for me (bad for SOME others) and decided that I was either going to use it to buy coke or E..
So I decided on buying coke. Everything was good even though the person I was buying it from made me kinda iffy for a few reasons that I'm not going to mention and I contiplated on buying it for awile. Finally I said fuck it and I did. BUT heres the shitty part.. I decided to make sure I got the approval from the one that I love before I did anything that was going to really upset him (even though I had already had the permission yeah PERMISSION to try it once). So yeah whatever he says it's okay if I swear on his life no crosses count that this will be the only time that I do it. (2nd if you count so call snorting a "line" with Billy). So I agreed but whattayaaa know.. right after I do it he decided to like ignore me the rest of the night. Not nessacarily ignore me, like if I said something to him he would respond just not in a very happy kinda way. He also decided to "write in his journal" for about a half hour and when he was finally done he just slept and listened to his head fones untill his ride came. I mean seriously. You said I could do something that you know I was looking forward to for like ever.. I agreed to only doing it once and you still had to make the time shitty for me. You got either upset or mad even though you told me I could If i promised WHICH I DID...yet you still ended up upset-mad. I even tried talking to you about it and you still refused to respond to even that. I don't get why you can make me swear on your life and blah blah blah and then get upset when you know I'm only trying to have a good time for the ONE time I'm actually allowed to do it. You know I can't have a good time when your mad or upset with me so why'd you even bothering telling me I could do it. You pretty much lied to me. I dunno. I just don't understand why you get like you do over some of the things that I do. I can honestly say that It never fails.
I dunno.. whatever.
I know im going to get shit for this from not only him but from a few other people and before you start to really get involved.. start getting mad and start either lecsuring me or bitching at me I want to say this..
My intensions arnt to start doing coke and E on a daily basis. I promised the one person that I actually love more then anything on this planet that I would only try it to see what it's like and now that I have I`m done. I plan on keeping my promise and I know I will because I don't go back on my word. I just hope you know that the things that were said to me because I was curious to how they felt and what they did where completely and totally out of line and unnessacary. Number one it hurts to think that I could be considered as someone that would throw their whole life away for drugs and also to not be able to keep their word. Well when I prove you all wrong be aware of how bad im going to shove it all in your faces.
Enough said.
Nighty nite kiddos.
xOoX*
<3