I hate change
Soooo... I havn't gone to school in the past two days because my somethings have been swolen in the back of my throat and I had a fever. Yeah i dunno wut their called. lol
I`m also a real big bitch and I`m starting to realize that now. Like I`m not a really big bitch to a lot of people, but to some random's I am and I make myself and them feel like shit because of it. I dunno why. Like I don't do it on purpose most of the time. I do it... think about it and then realize how shitty I was. It neeeeeds to stop.
**I`m tryin` guys honestly.
But other then that I miss Mark. I miss being really close with him. I miss being able to talk to him like I used to. Things are kinda different lately and I know it's not his fault it's mostly mine and some of it isn't anybody's fault but I dunno. Things are weird now. It fucking sucks because I feel like sometimes im the reason he's unhappy and I can't fix it wen im the cause of it. I just wanna be there for him like i used to be and be able to make things a little bit better when I give him advice or try and make him happy when things are going shitty for him. I dunno.
I`m doing the same o'll shit I used to do but promised everyone I wouldn't. I`m gonna straight up eff up my life once again because i`m so effing blind. This frigen world is so unfair.
WHHHHYYYYYY DO I **** U SO MUCH????????????????????????????????????????????????????
I`m also a real big bitch and I`m starting to realize that now. Like I`m not a really big bitch to a lot of people, but to some random's I am and I make myself and them feel like shit because of it. I dunno why. Like I don't do it on purpose most of the time. I do it... think about it and then realize how shitty I was. It neeeeeds to stop.
**I`m tryin` guys honestly.
But other then that I miss Mark. I miss being really close with him. I miss being able to talk to him like I used to. Things are kinda different lately and I know it's not his fault it's mostly mine and some of it isn't anybody's fault but I dunno. Things are weird now. It fucking sucks because I feel like sometimes im the reason he's unhappy and I can't fix it wen im the cause of it. I just wanna be there for him like i used to be and be able to make things a little bit better when I give him advice or try and make him happy when things are going shitty for him. I dunno.
I`m doing the same o'll shit I used to do but promised everyone I wouldn't. I`m gonna straight up eff up my life once again because i`m so effing blind. This frigen world is so unfair.
WHHHHYYYYYY DO I **** U SO MUCH????????????????????????????????????????????????????