some things never change...
i went and hung out with shan yesterday. it felt good just to see her for a little while. i couldn't hang out long, but i got to see her, and that is all that matters. sometimes i wonder what i'd do without her. like i mentioned the other day, all of my friends are skippin' town. for the most part.
ypsi sucks without all of my friends in it. well, it sucked before but i hardly noticed.
anyways, when shan and i were chit-chatting yesterday it saddened me. not because i was talking to her, but because of what we were talking about.
we were talking about our pasts [among other things!!!], and the people whom we both loved and cared about. things have changed so much. well, people have changed. well, no, let me rephrase that, shan and i have changed, MOST of the people we used to love and care about haven't changed, and that is the problem. somethings just never change. some people choose to stay in the same place though life, and most everyone else, is passing them by. staying where you are at is NOT okay. it isn't. when we get to this age we are supposed to mature. we are supposed to become adults. we aren't supposed to stay bratty, loser, zit-faced teenagers.
CHANGE IS NECESSARY!
sucking at life isn't. but some people think that it is.
there were TONS of people that i cared so much about, and that i made such an effort with, but you get to a certain point and realize it isn't fucking worth it.
every person chooses their OWN path, they choose it ENTIRELY on their own!
shit happens to everyone!!!
BUT each person takes what life gives them and does what they want with it. most people let those things defeat them. no matter what they say, or do, they fall over and over again. it just becomes sooooo tired! now, THIS is the point at which i stop caring. i have reached a point in my life where i have GOT to stop worrying about other people's bullshit, and the STUPID ASS decisions they made with THEIR OWN FUCKING LIVES!!! i have tried to befriend these people over and over, and i have gotten trampled on. i have been used up and thrown away OVER AND OVER AGAIN! and i am fucking tired of it.
i am not that person.
i have a few people that care about me back...after all is said and done i care about them more than anyone else. as a matter of fact, i've dropped everyone else. they don't exist to me. and with good reason...because they shouldn't.
i am sick of excuses. i am sick of "i'm sorry's," i'm sick of "i fucked up's," i am sick of "i'll do better next time's," i am sick of second, third, fourth, 187 millionth chances!!! i am sick of people sucking the fucking life out of me and leaving me all dried up, and alone, to fend for myself.
TRUE FUCKING FRIENDS DON'T DO THAT.
oh, and FYI: just because you suck at life, and i don't, doesn't make me a bad friend...it makes you a shitty person. and i simply don't want to be friends with shitty people. been there, done that, it isn't worth my time, or anyone's for that matter.
i have learned ALL this because i am fortunate enough to have a DELIGHTFUL number of friends that make my life wonderful. i have a choice number of folk that i can count on no matter what, no matter how often we talk, no matter how often we see each other [or don't], i know that they love me, and it is genuine love, and i love them back. i'd do anything for them just as i know that they'd do the same for me. these people know who they are because they know i love them, and i know who they are because i know they love me. and that is what TRUE friendship is. to hell with the rest of them!
friendship is not how much you call a person, not how many times you see them, not even how long you've known them...true friendship is genuine love and concern and RESPECT. and selflessness, something i am CONVINCED that MOST of the people on this entire fucking earth LACK!
boy, i am one lucky duck. :)
ypsi sucks without all of my friends in it. well, it sucked before but i hardly noticed.
anyways, when shan and i were chit-chatting yesterday it saddened me. not because i was talking to her, but because of what we were talking about.
we were talking about our pasts [among other things!!!], and the people whom we both loved and cared about. things have changed so much. well, people have changed. well, no, let me rephrase that, shan and i have changed, MOST of the people we used to love and care about haven't changed, and that is the problem. somethings just never change. some people choose to stay in the same place though life, and most everyone else, is passing them by. staying where you are at is NOT okay. it isn't. when we get to this age we are supposed to mature. we are supposed to become adults. we aren't supposed to stay bratty, loser, zit-faced teenagers.
CHANGE IS NECESSARY!
sucking at life isn't. but some people think that it is.
there were TONS of people that i cared so much about, and that i made such an effort with, but you get to a certain point and realize it isn't fucking worth it.
every person chooses their OWN path, they choose it ENTIRELY on their own!
shit happens to everyone!!!
BUT each person takes what life gives them and does what they want with it. most people let those things defeat them. no matter what they say, or do, they fall over and over again. it just becomes sooooo tired! now, THIS is the point at which i stop caring. i have reached a point in my life where i have GOT to stop worrying about other people's bullshit, and the STUPID ASS decisions they made with THEIR OWN FUCKING LIVES!!! i have tried to befriend these people over and over, and i have gotten trampled on. i have been used up and thrown away OVER AND OVER AGAIN! and i am fucking tired of it.
i am not that person.
i have a few people that care about me back...after all is said and done i care about them more than anyone else. as a matter of fact, i've dropped everyone else. they don't exist to me. and with good reason...because they shouldn't.
i am sick of excuses. i am sick of "i'm sorry's," i'm sick of "i fucked up's," i am sick of "i'll do better next time's," i am sick of second, third, fourth, 187 millionth chances!!! i am sick of people sucking the fucking life out of me and leaving me all dried up, and alone, to fend for myself.
TRUE FUCKING FRIENDS DON'T DO THAT.
oh, and FYI: just because you suck at life, and i don't, doesn't make me a bad friend...it makes you a shitty person. and i simply don't want to be friends with shitty people. been there, done that, it isn't worth my time, or anyone's for that matter.
i have learned ALL this because i am fortunate enough to have a DELIGHTFUL number of friends that make my life wonderful. i have a choice number of folk that i can count on no matter what, no matter how often we talk, no matter how often we see each other [or don't], i know that they love me, and it is genuine love, and i love them back. i'd do anything for them just as i know that they'd do the same for me. these people know who they are because they know i love them, and i know who they are because i know they love me. and that is what TRUE friendship is. to hell with the rest of them!
friendship is not how much you call a person, not how many times you see them, not even how long you've known them...true friendship is genuine love and concern and RESPECT. and selflessness, something i am CONVINCED that MOST of the people on this entire fucking earth LACK!
boy, i am one lucky duck. :)