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so today was not as fun as i thought it would be. i was really excited this morning for a few reasons 1) i was excused from my classes all day to decorate for honors night 2) i was getting pizza for lunch 3) i was getting to see grant(along with my other friends) 4) I was finally getting my teeth! for the first time since first grade i was gonna have a smile with all my teeth and no metal.
the decorating was fun but not as fun as i thought it was gonna be, the pizza was good but it gave me a belly ache, and i didn't really get to see grant i only got to see him for about 5min all this was ok but my day really started to suck when i found out that my stupid anatomy group didn't do very much on our cat and they messed parts of it up, it really makes me mad, i do almost all the work and i try really hard on it and they don't do anything and when i am gone they just f'^ the whole thing and then they get mad at me for me not being there like its my fault that they are dumb.(i sound kinda harsh but i am in a bad mood and i don't care) then in 6th hour i started to get a migraine. I was trying really hard to get past it and not let it get me down because i was so excited to get my teeth. So i went home and cleaned up my room a little more talked to grant on the phone and then got ready to go to the dentist and get my teeth. When i got there they called me in and gave me my flipper(its the little thing that is on my teeth to keep them in). They put it in and it felt a little strange at first but it was ok and then the dentist people keep saying the shade is a little lighter, and we(me and my mom) kept saying "yea we got it that way cause she is whitening her teeth" well the shade isn't just a little lighter it is a lot lighter, the shade guides that they have at the dentist office are off so the flipper is way whiter than my ugly yellow teeth. I have always hated my smile because i either had metal in it or i didn't have all my teeth i was so excited to finally have a pretty smile and it is just as ugly as ever. and it makes me feel even worse because everytime i look in the mirror i see how yellow my teeth are. *sigh* i shouldn't even be complainin i am so lucky to have the life i have and not everything can be prefect but after 11 years of waiting and it still not working it starts to get disappointing. I have been a good sport through all this time of ugly teeth and this time it just pushed me over the edge, idk maybe i am just being a baby.
another thing that has been really getting to me lately and a lot today( i think it is really getting to me today because i am not very happy) is my grandma. It is really starting to hit me that she is gone. I am really starting to miss her. a lot. almost everyday i find myself almost breaking down into tears missing her. I feel like i have been completely alone through the whole thing with my grandma and it has had me really sad 2. It is partly my fault because i don't let people know that i need them i just walk around acting like everything is normal hoping that they will notice and then if they do i tell them that i am fine and i don't need the help even though i do and all i want is for someone to just hug me and let me cry to them. idk i have some thinking and reading to do, i found that it is kind of helping me to read my grandmas journals. sometimes it makes me even more sad but sometimes it makes me happy to remember her.
sorry if you read all this crap
Cassi
the decorating was fun but not as fun as i thought it was gonna be, the pizza was good but it gave me a belly ache, and i didn't really get to see grant i only got to see him for about 5min all this was ok but my day really started to suck when i found out that my stupid anatomy group didn't do very much on our cat and they messed parts of it up, it really makes me mad, i do almost all the work and i try really hard on it and they don't do anything and when i am gone they just f'^ the whole thing and then they get mad at me for me not being there like its my fault that they are dumb.(i sound kinda harsh but i am in a bad mood and i don't care) then in 6th hour i started to get a migraine. I was trying really hard to get past it and not let it get me down because i was so excited to get my teeth. So i went home and cleaned up my room a little more talked to grant on the phone and then got ready to go to the dentist and get my teeth. When i got there they called me in and gave me my flipper(its the little thing that is on my teeth to keep them in). They put it in and it felt a little strange at first but it was ok and then the dentist people keep saying the shade is a little lighter, and we(me and my mom) kept saying "yea we got it that way cause she is whitening her teeth" well the shade isn't just a little lighter it is a lot lighter, the shade guides that they have at the dentist office are off so the flipper is way whiter than my ugly yellow teeth. I have always hated my smile because i either had metal in it or i didn't have all my teeth i was so excited to finally have a pretty smile and it is just as ugly as ever. and it makes me feel even worse because everytime i look in the mirror i see how yellow my teeth are. *sigh* i shouldn't even be complainin i am so lucky to have the life i have and not everything can be prefect but after 11 years of waiting and it still not working it starts to get disappointing. I have been a good sport through all this time of ugly teeth and this time it just pushed me over the edge, idk maybe i am just being a baby.
another thing that has been really getting to me lately and a lot today( i think it is really getting to me today because i am not very happy) is my grandma. It is really starting to hit me that she is gone. I am really starting to miss her. a lot. almost everyday i find myself almost breaking down into tears missing her. I feel like i have been completely alone through the whole thing with my grandma and it has had me really sad 2. It is partly my fault because i don't let people know that i need them i just walk around acting like everything is normal hoping that they will notice and then if they do i tell them that i am fine and i don't need the help even though i do and all i want is for someone to just hug me and let me cry to them. idk i have some thinking and reading to do, i found that it is kind of helping me to read my grandmas journals. sometimes it makes me even more sad but sometimes it makes me happy to remember her.
sorry if you read all this crap
Cassi