Why am I here?
No, not questioning existence.
I'm looking back at the dormancy of this blog. It had become my muse of all media. A gathering spot for my thoughts on video games, books, movies, music...all sundry forms of entertainment. It had also become a massive timesuck.
I was finding myself scattered. No lasting focus. A dilettante obsessively consuming a bite of media and flitting away to the next regardless of its completion. And I was casting it out here for everyone.
Sometimes I forget the far reaches of the internet. Do I really want my daily thoughts broadcast to all? I could mess with lots of filters, but really don't want to fuss with identifying those who could read each different level of posts. I'd rather be open in my words though I fear consequences of honesty.
Last year, I cut it off. Cut myself off. Cut you off.
Am I interested in all of my friend's page "friends" lives? Of course.
Can I keep up with all of you? Not well.
I do miss you.
Then again I can say the same things about my real family scattered across the States. I don't do phone calls or letters or communicate with regularity.
I wonder if this is how I'll be remembered. Vain ramblings on whatever had my interest.
I'm not back. Simply uncertain how and if this blog should proceed. I've toyed with simply more of the same varied entertainment shout-outs or dedicating it to a sole purpose: my thoughts on the Bible, or my short fiction, or shutting down completely.
Whatever the case, I wanted to post an explanation and my well wishes.
May life here at LJ find you well regardless of if I read you or you read me. May God bless you and grant us peace.
I'm looking back at the dormancy of this blog. It had become my muse of all media. A gathering spot for my thoughts on video games, books, movies, music...all sundry forms of entertainment. It had also become a massive timesuck.
I was finding myself scattered. No lasting focus. A dilettante obsessively consuming a bite of media and flitting away to the next regardless of its completion. And I was casting it out here for everyone.
Sometimes I forget the far reaches of the internet. Do I really want my daily thoughts broadcast to all? I could mess with lots of filters, but really don't want to fuss with identifying those who could read each different level of posts. I'd rather be open in my words though I fear consequences of honesty.
Last year, I cut it off. Cut myself off. Cut you off.
Am I interested in all of my friend's page "friends" lives? Of course.
Can I keep up with all of you? Not well.
I do miss you.
Then again I can say the same things about my real family scattered across the States. I don't do phone calls or letters or communicate with regularity.
I wonder if this is how I'll be remembered. Vain ramblings on whatever had my interest.
I'm not back. Simply uncertain how and if this blog should proceed. I've toyed with simply more of the same varied entertainment shout-outs or dedicating it to a sole purpose: my thoughts on the Bible, or my short fiction, or shutting down completely.
Whatever the case, I wanted to post an explanation and my well wishes.
May life here at LJ find you well regardless of if I read you or you read me. May God bless you and grant us peace.