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Things are better 'n better with him.
Scarily better.
One thing I am realizing with him is that before, with SWSNBN, the entire relationship then was built on fantasy. The fantasy of me being... a totally different person, the fantasy of her being a totally different person - as well as a teenager/young adult with her own plethora of issues - and a fantasy that we were right for one another.
We weren't, we so weren't.
This time, though, I am me. Me the weird, me the opinionated, me the grr cunt, me the history buff, me the political buff, me the person interested in a lot of things.
And he's interested in the same stuff.
THIS is what a relationship is supposed to be.
He doesn't mind my friendships with Bob or Ju and has even called them important. My work is important, my life away from the computer is important; none of these mattered before. Only she was important, only she mattered.
And yet if I had to go through it all again to find him, I'd do so.
We both agree to take things as slow or fast as we feel comfortable with.
That last, to me, is just the icing on this wonderful surprise cake.
I'm feelin' it, y'all. Seriously, I think I'm feelin' it.
Scarily better.
One thing I am realizing with him is that before, with SWSNBN, the entire relationship then was built on fantasy. The fantasy of me being... a totally different person, the fantasy of her being a totally different person - as well as a teenager/young adult with her own plethora of issues - and a fantasy that we were right for one another.
We weren't, we so weren't.
This time, though, I am me. Me the weird, me the opinionated, me the grr cunt, me the history buff, me the political buff, me the person interested in a lot of things.
And he's interested in the same stuff.
THIS is what a relationship is supposed to be.
He doesn't mind my friendships with Bob or Ju and has even called them important. My work is important, my life away from the computer is important; none of these mattered before. Only she was important, only she mattered.
And yet if I had to go through it all again to find him, I'd do so.
We both agree to take things as slow or fast as we feel comfortable with.
That last, to me, is just the icing on this wonderful surprise cake.
I'm feelin' it, y'all. Seriously, I think I'm feelin' it.