Day 24, rest day
Yesterday's bad day kinda bled into the overnight time. I slept very fitfully and when I woke up I kept getting caught in these worry loops about nazis / fascists / bad people. It's kind of one thing to be witnessing and engaging in a cultural struggle (even if very minimally from my privileged position of basically not having to engage with people most of the time) that feels very apocalyptic at times - and another thing altogether to get caught in stupid worry loops when I can't actually do anything about anything. My brain is sometimes really not on my side.
A fair amount of anxiety last night and today, manifesting as the shortness of breath symptom that I sometimes get, and also that weird bubble of pain inside my chest.
All of this is discouraging. I had been doing pretty good.
I listened to the newly mixed & finalized versions of these synth tracks I've been trying to finish up. They were a lot closer, so it was encouraging getting some progress on that front.
Nusch gave me one of her rare lappies, sitting there purring and rubbing my face really hard (I thought she might dislocate my nose). Sweet cat. I like it when she sits on my lap.
Later on, we watched the Polish documentary on Jeph Jerman that's finally completed after several years. I guess it's not getting released in the U.S., which seems really peculiar. Good flick anyway.
Also in good news the Department of Transportation finally installed the blinking crosswalk at the dangerous intersection that I have to cross frequently. I'm very happy about that. It'll make crossing there a bit less scary.
A fair amount of anxiety last night and today, manifesting as the shortness of breath symptom that I sometimes get, and also that weird bubble of pain inside my chest.
All of this is discouraging. I had been doing pretty good.
I listened to the newly mixed & finalized versions of these synth tracks I've been trying to finish up. They were a lot closer, so it was encouraging getting some progress on that front.
Nusch gave me one of her rare lappies, sitting there purring and rubbing my face really hard (I thought she might dislocate my nose). Sweet cat. I like it when she sits on my lap.
Later on, we watched the Polish documentary on Jeph Jerman that's finally completed after several years. I guess it's not getting released in the U.S., which seems really peculiar. Good flick anyway.
Also in good news the Department of Transportation finally installed the blinking crosswalk at the dangerous intersection that I have to cross frequently. I'm very happy about that. It'll make crossing there a bit less scary.