Just some thoughts on my family.
I find it really weird how my family acts. A few days ago, I was talking to my family about going to college. They were all for it, and asking information. But then they sit down and ask me, "How are you going to pay for it, cause we don't want you to get financial aid." I look over to them, and I wonder what the hell they want me to do. For years, they want me to get an education. I finally am getting one and they want me to take a bachelors degree program one course per semester. That is going to take me years to finish all my courses for my degree as apposed to only 3 years if I work every semester. So now that I am doing what they wanted me to, they don't want me to do anything to get it that isn't their way.
Then yesterday, on Independence Day, the family was there. It was my first year there since being in Puerto Rico. No one talked to me. If it wasn't for my friend duraji_synth I would have been left all alone. My aunt talked to me but I see her all the time. Not even my own mother would come up and talk to me. I don't know what I did to her, but she didn't want to talk to me. It is like I am not even part of my own family sometimes. I guess maybe it is for the best, but it still gets you deep down inside. Especially since they were giving me lectures about family togetherness when I had a baby. But now it is a whole different story. Family togetherness my ass.
I guess I am only part of a family when I do what they want me to do, when they want me to do it, and how they want me to do it.
Then yesterday, on Independence Day, the family was there. It was my first year there since being in Puerto Rico. No one talked to me. If it wasn't for my friend duraji_synth I would have been left all alone. My aunt talked to me but I see her all the time. Not even my own mother would come up and talk to me. I don't know what I did to her, but she didn't want to talk to me. It is like I am not even part of my own family sometimes. I guess maybe it is for the best, but it still gets you deep down inside. Especially since they were giving me lectures about family togetherness when I had a baby. But now it is a whole different story. Family togetherness my ass.
I guess I am only part of a family when I do what they want me to do, when they want me to do it, and how they want me to do it.