Poem 4 Parker
Deep and dark,
a lonely hole,
tears of blood weep from my soul.
Physically torn,
emotionally scarred,
why is living feeling so hard?
a past once well hidden,
leaves healed wounds reopened,
feelings of resentment,
hatred and discust,
with feelings of needingness,
wantingness and lust.
Confusion im my mind,
with feelings i cant find.
All i feel is emptiness,
rejection and despair,
what i feel and what i want,
i cant even compare.
Why am i so lonely?
Why do i feel lost?
Everyone gets what they want,
no matter what the cost!
Everythings so hard for me,
i only want to be set free.
Free of anger,
free of hate,
free of everything i ate.
Safe with comfort and security,
whilst still filled with inner purity
Underneath the bravest face,
a face of tears is in its place.
Crying out for attention and love,
craving comfort but its not enough.
Am i the one whos selfish?
if so how can this be?
Just because im always overcome with jealousy.
Why is it too much to ask for any kind of hope,
just enough to get me through,
just enough to cope.
Friends around me,
i dont cry,
They dont know i want to die.
No one knows, not a soul,
the pain i feel out of control.
Wishing,waiting, wanting,wailing,
all through life i feel im failing.
Cant keep moving, cant sit still
times that make me feel so ill.
Death is such a quick escape,
the quicker its over, already too late.
Darkness deep and empty,
no more feeling, no more pain,
never being hurt again.
No more sadness & despair,
no more feeling im not even there.
Attention unwanted, unneeded, unused,
no more hurting or feeling abused.
Its all over, its now the end...
I feel the blood rush from my brain,
now close my eyes and feel no pain..........
a lonely hole,
tears of blood weep from my soul.
Physically torn,
emotionally scarred,
why is living feeling so hard?
a past once well hidden,
leaves healed wounds reopened,
feelings of resentment,
hatred and discust,
with feelings of needingness,
wantingness and lust.
Confusion im my mind,
with feelings i cant find.
All i feel is emptiness,
rejection and despair,
what i feel and what i want,
i cant even compare.
Why am i so lonely?
Why do i feel lost?
Everyone gets what they want,
no matter what the cost!
Everythings so hard for me,
i only want to be set free.
Free of anger,
free of hate,
free of everything i ate.
Safe with comfort and security,
whilst still filled with inner purity
Underneath the bravest face,
a face of tears is in its place.
Crying out for attention and love,
craving comfort but its not enough.
Am i the one whos selfish?
if so how can this be?
Just because im always overcome with jealousy.
Why is it too much to ask for any kind of hope,
just enough to get me through,
just enough to cope.
Friends around me,
i dont cry,
They dont know i want to die.
No one knows, not a soul,
the pain i feel out of control.
Wishing,waiting, wanting,wailing,
all through life i feel im failing.
Cant keep moving, cant sit still
times that make me feel so ill.
Death is such a quick escape,
the quicker its over, already too late.
Darkness deep and empty,
no more feeling, no more pain,
never being hurt again.
No more sadness & despair,
no more feeling im not even there.
Attention unwanted, unneeded, unused,
no more hurting or feeling abused.
Its all over, its now the end...
I feel the blood rush from my brain,
now close my eyes and feel no pain..........