i just want to thank you for thinking of me

[vulnerabamamora]

If pre-ms isn't bad enough, I'm having a horrible case of post-ms this time around. All kinds of crazy fantasies race through my head. It all sounds great till reality settles back in and I realize my life is mediocre and I kind of like it that way. But sometimes I get a wild hair for some adventure or risk. It will never happen, as I'm notorious for talking myself out of these things. And of course the one time I managed to convince myself the risk was worth it, everything blew up in my face. Life is hard and it sucks sometimes. I wish I could hit pause on certain parts so that I can better focus on others. Instead I juggle it all at once. I just grin and bear it and know that in the end things work out as the should. At least that's what I always tell myself. I find it interesting that I have no real spiritual guide, other than the belief in some sort of pre-destained path that I somehow have.

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