a girls got to do her research
What is it about the thought of marriage, or never being single again that scares me? I just find it odd that I would rather look for love in all the wrong places than accept the love that I get whole heartedly every day!! that cannot be normal. why do i have random spells of wanting to just take a month and be single and free and to do what I want? Is it maybe because i feel like I can;t be myself around him? I can't do many of the things that I would normally do without an attachment? When does taking someones sensitivities into consideration and changing oneself completely overlap? There have been time when I have wanted to go places or do things and I have said no because I knew that he would get upset. Now, my question is, is it legitimate? He has made it clear that he does not want to hang out with any of my ex's. I, however, have decent, completely non-sexual, relation ships with many of them. I don't know if thats normal. I know that I have friends that have similar relationships and some that do not. I think a lot of it depends on the nature of the relationship and break up. Regardless, I sometimes wonder if this carried over into other aspects of our relationship. I have fairly liberal views on a lot of things. He really doesn't. In fact hes pretty uptight about a lot of things. I wonder if I don't feel comfortable being my true self. It's also hard for me to tell if my whole trying to keep a healthy relationship goal has bled into other aspects of my life and if i have told myself that those behaviors are unhealthy as well. I, again, feel like I am hung up on something and I can't figure it out. It's driving me fucking crazy.